Infinite On High`s.

Story of my life.

2012-02-05T21:47:00.000+08:00

Boy meets girl.

Girl screws it all up.

Life, it goes on.

2012-01-05T21:28:00.001+08:00

It sucks, how you had a choice, but it wasn`t me.

You may think that I won`t make it on my own.

2012-01-05T10:44:00.002+08:00

I`m going to TP openhouse today :) Gonna lend my support to Sabby and Melvyn and check out their design school, cause apparently NP has no design school ): Not like I`m actually going to poly hurhur. 2k course fees too expensive!!!

Been looking through all the JC information Sperm showed me and it`s been freaking useful. I already know what I wanna do - Art H2, Chemistry H2, Literature H2, because these are my favourite subjects ( and the only ones I got A in other than Amath ) 8D Besides, lit and art make me seem like the deep, emotional sounding romantic person I`m not HAHA.

List of schools under consideration ( In no order )

1. SA

2. TJC

3. VJC

4. RI

5. NYJC

6. ACJC ( To a lesser extent )

Of course it all boils down to 9th Janurary. I swear I`m going to be one of those people who are going to look back in regret. LOL. Just like PSLE. Don`t bother comforting me telling me I aced my PSLE. I didn`t challenge myself enough, and deep down I knew it. What feels worse than mediocre results? Knowing you didn`t really give it your best shot.

Not saying I gave my best shot at Os. English was stupid - I bombed the paper, and I`m highly in danger of getting an A2 or even a B3. I`m gonna cut a bitch if I do, because I pride myself on speaking near-perfect amazing English. And I judge people who don`t.

Geography was a goner - face it I got lucky. No mapwork, no mixing of questions, if not I would have flunked the whole goddamned paper. I went in there thinking I was "screwed, screwed, screwed", and actually came out thinking " hey that wasn`t so bad after all". If only I`d studied. Haha.

Sigh, I don`t want to think about this anymore. It`s depressing. HAHA

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2012-01-02T22:05:00.001+08:00

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What do you do when your good isn`t good enough

2012-01-01T20:45:00.004+08:00

Here`s to ushering in the new year.

It`s again the time to make those resolutions, absolutely swear to yourself to make this the best year yet, contemplate on how much last year sucked. That`s when I came to realise that our lives seem to follow the pattern of this hilarious facebook graphic:

True or no? I`m not a pessimist, but I don`t think 2012 will be any different - unless you make it. I pretty much feel that 2012`s started on the wrong foot - not literally, not that the clock struck twelve and I wasn`t partying hard enough, but that I`m in one of those valleys in life. I still am. But one thing I`m sure of - the year is on its way to get better.

Looking through my archives, I realised I made no new year resolutions for 2011!!! It`s a tradition to dig them up and contemplate on how well I`ve kept them every year, since 2008. My 2010 resolutions were as ridiculous as hell such as " Gym once a week" and " Eat fast food no more than twice a week" HAHAHA like that`s ever happening

Okay, damn. I`ll just set a couple for 2012:

1. Be happy.

I think that`s all that I really, really want. I wanted to write that on the lantern we sent up into the sky yesterday but it sounded so corny. I ended up writing a lot of materialistic crap like iPad 2s and Miu Miu Bags. Okay, I don`t really care if I don`t get any of that stuff.

2. Embrace junior college life

Okay, common sense, a new school is an opportunity to reinvent yourself, to pretend you weren`t that loser in high school. Truth is, I`m still pretty confused about where I`m heading, and what sort of person I`d like to be. I`ve met so many different new people this holiday who shared their experiences with me. I`m like standing at crossroads. Hurhur. When I make up my mind, I`m going to start school on the right foot, I`m going to fit in this time, nail the hottest guys ( Nah, just kidding about that laaaaa ), join a cool CCA (HAHAHAHA.)

That would be all... for now. Because what I really wanted to post about was my 2-day, pathetic vacation. HAHAHA.

We went to this fishing place by the sea where the houses are like, totally wooden planks and incredibly intimidating to a fail swimmer like me. I can`t remember what it`s called cause the name is so queer to me. Anyway, beneath the wooden planks is a huge muddy pool of gunk that you could come so close to failing into that floods during high tide. There are LOTS of mangroves, geography students.

Exactly... this is it.

High tide!

It sounded pretty disgusting and rural but frankly it was, in some ways, great. There are toilets, water, electricity, air con bedrooms and even karaoke. Hurhur. Highlights include the fish farms, quality seafood fresh from the sea ( no, not the mud ) and setting off your own fireworks and firecrackers cause such stuff is outlawed in Sg.

Weather: Freaking hot and amazing, unlike Singapore`s lukewarm sun and way too frequent rain. It was scorching hot, and it stayed that way. It didn`t rain once. I`d have liked some rain though, I wanted to see the seas flood and submerge the plank pavements. Heehee.

It is ideal for tanning, though there is no beach. I`m like a shade darker than I was before. Hurhur. I EVEN HAVE TANLINES, HOORAY FOR THE TANK TOPS.

I have gotten into this trend of wearing sunglasses as headbands cause since my terrible fringe cut ( not reflected in above picture ) I`ve been putting my fringe up. I bought this really huge, pretty pair of shades. ( Not the one above, that`s my dad`s -__-) I mean, all it needs as a Chanel/ Gucci stamp on it. :)

Pristine blue skies :) And yes, that`s the main road! There are a row of shops, offering dirt cheap stuff like toys and ice deserts and CLOTHES and accessories. Oh joy. But nah, I didn`t spend too much. :)

I have never seen so many chicken wings in my life.

Food was absolutely fab. Seafood, and spice are two of my favourite things so there`s nothing like spicy seafood. I ate like, 3 crabs. I love crabs, and I love clams. I like fish too, but I`m always afraid to choke on bones. I don`t like prawns, and I`ve never had lobster I think, HAHA. Stingray was absolutely om nom nomness.

To end off I saved a couple of the best firework photos. God, my family just spent like, 80ringgit on little colour explosive things. They are really scary for the typical spoilt Singaporean kid. I managed to light a firecracker myself okay. ^^v. When they explode, they`re really close to us and I`m quite scared they`re gonna kill somebody. Some even dart across the floor HAHAHA.

Yup, enjoy. Xoxo.

Silly Love Songs

2011-12-30T23:08:00.002+08:00

Belated Christmas.

I wanted to talk about dealing with sadness cause I seem to have a couple of bad days nowadays. My self esteem is at an all-time low. That`s why going on vacation might be good for me actually, I need a break and a tan :-) I`ll be away for the weekend, fishing! HAHAHAHA

Things that always work when I`m in a sad, horrible mood ( which you might want to try )

1. Splurging on an extravagant meal which I will stuff my face with. Of course, cheap food is just as joyous. I have an enormous appetite on either end of the spectrum of emotion. Too happy, I eat ALOT, and when screwed up, I eat ALOT too.

Pros: Food makes you happy

Cons: You might get fat, if you`re not a size zero like meh. You might burn a huge hole in your wallet and regret upon pooping out all that gold

2. Daydreaming. I spend most of my time visualising an imaginary hot dude with abs ( Okay, I`m kidding ), awesome things happening to me, like when I`m incredibly rich and can stroll down Orchard likaboss, and that everyone loves me (hur hur hur) It works, taking yourself out of painful reality, even if it`s just momentary.

Pros: You can indulge in your own make believe happiness

Cons: You might get delusional

3. A haircut. Okay, when you feel really crappy about yourself, it does good to go "Out with the old, in with the new". Sometimes you just wanna chop it all off. I`ll admit that in the past I used haircuts often to deal with sadness. I`m not saying if you`re sad you should go cut your hair LOL, just that a change in appearance helps you to make a fresh start, especially in a period of prolonged down time. You just feel better.

Pros: You look nice, gain confidence and feel better about life

Cons: The haircut could suck and you look ten times worse and hundred times more miserable

4. Splurging on an expensive item. I believe that we gotta forgive ourselves sometimes, when we mess up, even when we don`t and things have a way of screwing themselves, we just wanna chew our own heads off. Being sad is always an excuse for me to defy the norm, and to do whatever I like. ( Which is why I always end up in unwanted debt and undone homework after a moment of sadness. ) I mean, who cares so much when you feel like crap? Please yourself.

Please just don`t put a whole collection of Louis Vuitton on credit just because you feel like it. When I say expensive things, I mean, stretch yourself, but don`t go overboard. Hur

Pros: You feel good I guess ( well idk, unless you`re a miser )

Cons: You hate the item and end up with buyer`s remorse and feel like crap

5. Cry. Standard response to sadness, but really, who can cry all the time? You can be sad for a month, but face it, you can only cry every night before you go to sleep. Nobody`s going to be around if you break down all the time. Well, self pity actually feels good. Whatever it is, do not escalate into self-harm. Self harm is so not cool. Threatening other with your life won`t make them stay, blackmailing them with your emotions won`t make them give you any more willing attention than they are forced to, out of fear. Nobody wants to live with the regret that anyone hurt themselves because they didn`t come through for them. But it`s definitely not because they care about you. If you`re pretty much on your own, I could love to care about you for real. ^^v You know how to find me, hurhur.

Pros: Crying always somehow makes you feel better.

Cons: You might fall into deeper sadness and think alarming negative thoughts

I can think of somemore, but here are some of my ideas. What are yours?

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2011-12-21T19:05:00.001+08:00

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Three days grace

2011-11-18T14:53:00.002+08:00

ayyyyy I`m posting again cause I don`t want my blog to rot. ( ^. ^ )

I`m too lazy to come up with a detailed update now. I have had 3 really amazing days that are simply too difficult to put to words. So I`ll just give you a summary of what happened, and once the pictures get on Facebook, then I`ll start stealing HAHA.

Friday: Chalet @ Costa Sands, Happy blessed birthday Josh! I`ve been celebrating Joshua`s birthday for 3 years HAHAHA. He`s such an awesome friend! Kinda sad that the rain poured down in sheets and we had to give www a miss but Orchid Bowl was some compensation. I`m louseh, but it was fun! :)

Was telling @yeojoey that we should both join the bowling team in JC but nah. I hate to suck at things, especially things I like. Don`t we all? It`s like, if you failed ( insert certain subject at school ) which you are not passionate about you wouldn`t give much of a damn ( unless you`re some totally hardcore mugga that being less than perfect in anything is unacceptable ) But I hate being bad at things I love, because you really want to be good at them, so the criticism hits you where it hurts ):

Much of my passion for some sports has been killed by arrogant, overconfident people who are determined to destroy every bit of self esteem of a poor beginner. Annoying people that constantly remind you that you suck, and that other people are better. Let`s forget all of them, shall we?

Okay, shall bear no grudges heehee.

I wanna let pictures do the talking. I`ll just leave this post hanging with few pictures I have of our preparation for prom night :D This was where we spent the night!

The bed was utterly amazing. It is a pity we didn`t get much sleep because we were gaming from like 2 to 5 p.m. like a bunch of addicts. Poor people living next door, our brawls must have disturbed thou sport.

A word of advice, hotels are not the most teenager/ gathering friendly accomodation. You have much better luck getting a chalet, because all that sneaking pass the 3-pax capacity rule and trying to keep your voices down can be reallyyyy nerve-wrecking and stressful. If you`re underage ( like meh ), it`s even more difficult to get a hotel room cause without supportive parents there are so many "legal-age" procedures you got to deal with. It`s horrible.

If you really think that you could use a hotel, you should always use booking.com. If the link doesn`t work, google it. Imo you can get the cheapest prices there, if you have no friends with benefits. Never, ever resort to booking sleazy places for your non-sleazy, proper fun-loving gatherings ( lesson learnt ), because places like Hotel81 have a 18 and above entry age limit.Not much wonder what these places are intended for, yup.

Okay but Hotel Michael was gorgeous and amazing. It`s a pity we couldn`t afford to try any of the fancy dining in the lobby.

And thanks Brendan, for the loan of the credit card! :)

Me flouncing on the too-comfortable bed in my USS t-shirt. I`m such a tourist. I love hotels, I love soaps and shampoo bottles in cute small packages, I love the teabags, the toilets, everything (y)

And I have been to USS, IN YUR FACE. Frankly, the rides are not that amazing. What really blew me away was the decoration and design of the place. It must have cost millions. It was surreal, like a dream world. In fact, nearly every part of Resorts World Sentosa looks like a castle. Heehee. I have a whole album on USS in my facebook, check that out if you like.

I`m beginning to think I`m a really lucky person after all. :)

Getting ready for Prom took hours cause we had no idea what to do ): And forgot my comb and hairspray, gahzzzz. I like this picture, cause I have sexy legs in it :)

THE WEDGES! THE WEDGES! Kay I am damn tired now I wanna go take a quick eyeshut. Update soon, promise :)

He`s a fool you`re just as well hope he gives you hell.

2011-11-13T18:52:00.003+08:00

Gonna stop happing on my readership. Read if you like. If nobody wants to read my blog, I can deal and write.... for myself. Heh.

Yay, saturday was great as usual, went to eat Jus Acia, where I haven`t been to for like, the longest time. Also managed to spend some quality time with my best friends in cell as well, Faye and Josh! I swear that girl gets prettier everyday heeheee can`t wait for Os to be over so we can all go shopping!

Aiyo... tinypic, the website which hosts my images makes them either too big or too small cause they only have standard sizes ): Anyway this photo is taken by Kefei. Hi Kefei! :)

When am I ever going to get a white iPhone? ):

I edited my teeth cause they looked super.... gay under the light. HAHAHA I didn`t really do it properly so looks damn fake.

If you`re an avid fan of picture editing - I have a new recommendation. I`ve been using Picnik for like, the past year cause I have zero photoshop skills. Then some kind soul on Formspring told me about an application known as Mei Tu Xiu Xiu （美图修修）and I decided to give it a try. At first the Chinese chimology put me off but I realised that it`s the best picture editing app I have ever used.

It`s not just for the iPhone it`s computer software too. Maybe next week I will do a post on what wonders it can do. Stay tuned! :)

I`m seriously like now just stealing people`s pictures to post la, cause I have none of my own. LOL.

Today Serena uploaded the art coursework submission so I shall try to steal pictures from there! Hope I don`t violate any of SEAB's rules, I mean they`re already up on facebook anyway :)

Gay, disgusting picture of me slogging my guts out at the coursework. Yes, that was taken on the day of submission. You can see me hurriedly trying to fill my empty boards with some crap at the last minute. :D

And yes, I like to tie my fringe up with a kitchen rubber band when I`m busy working. HAHAHA.

Honestly, the 9 months of art was hell. I really enjoy art, but like, having to do 24/7 was a drag. I had to spend all of my spare afternoons in the art room, painting. Even after remedials. Weeks leading up to the submission I stayed back till eight to complete my coursework. While everyone got to mug their asses off for Prelim and Os, we were... painting. Drawing. Sketching.

The final pieces. I hope Josh is reading this cause he`s wanted to see them like, forever. ;)

It`s not really hard to figure out which painting`s mine if you have been following up with my coursework, but I painted the really long paranoma-like one with the city lights, the rain and the streets. Really inspired by Glee's version of Don`t Stop Believing so if I could give it a title, it`d be " Streetlights, People." HAHAHA.

Oh and check out all of my friends' awesum works too. Methinks our art cohort is damn amazing ;)

Spent today doing Chem MCQs with Hy at Nex, Carl's Jr. It`s a really really great place to mug though the prices can be a bit steep but you get free flow of drinks from ice lemon tea to coke, sprite, F&N grape, whatever. They even have real lemons. ^^v.

Heheh Hy is a really special guy cause we met in the most extraordinary manner. On the eve of the Chemistry Paper 2 of Os we just happened to chance upon each other in the library. I didn`t know him then. He gave me this slip of foolscrap paper with a smiley face and his number on it. Aww! That must have taken a lot of courage.

He`s a really cute guy, not to mention, funny, and interesting. Hope we`ll all ace our Paper1 tomorrow! If you take physics/ combined science I congratulate you for having reached the end of Os heehee but try not to rub it in too much kay, we pure biology peeps still have a paper on Tuesday :) But time flies, it`ll all be over real soon right? :)

K I go do my MCQ alr la :)

This one`s for you and me

2011-11-11T20:09:00.001+08:00

Hello friendly world.

I`m starting to feel optimistic about regaining my readership because I had 62 views yesterday but only seven views today ):

Whatever, don`t read my boring first post then write me off as a lousy blogger kay!

The picture is just there, cause I`ve got no pictures to post. I don`t even know what to name my blog entry okay, because I don`t have the habit of naming them after song lyrics anymore.

I finally found the song I`ve been looking for for damn long. It`s actually Bruno Mars - sky full of lighters. What the hell are lighters!? Like, those that start fires? :O

Went shopping with Gaymie and Niki for prom, and I`m srsly having a bad case of buyer's remorse right now. I spent loads, more than sixty bucks and most of it on stuff that I`m not even wearing to prom -__- cause I couldn`t resist getting all the nice stuff.

I got something really.... normal and boring for prom. Something I`d actually wear to church, or even out on a date. Better this way cause I don`t really believe in dressing up. I`m not one of those girls who believe that prom`s like their "once in a lifetime" opportunity to dress up. I dress up all the time.

Whatever. I`ll still look good in everything right? HAHAHA joking.

I got wedges - I`VE WANTED WEDGES FOREVER. KIMMI SMILES WEDGES. Watch this video ( watch the whole thing if you want ) or just skip to 1.01 to see the wedges!

http://youtu.be/dk5BvAxx1mE

Sorry youtube didn`t allow me to post the video here because it violated some publishing rights ~.~

And a whole lot of other crap. Had a fun day. Looking forward to tomorrow! Should go study Chemistry/ Biology now :)

I`M BACK.

2011-11-10T15:59:00.002+08:00

Hey, fourteen people read my blog yesterday, that`s not so bad, is it?

Okay, hello :)

I`m back earlier than I should have been, I cheated, but who gives a shit about MCQ. I`m ready to start blogging all over again. HAHAHA.

Sadly, I lost most of my viewers when I went a reallyyyyy long MIA for Os. I have been checking my blog stats, and I`ve been getting 200+ views every month. I hope like, people would come back and support me in my blogging habit. :) And of course, I`m looking forward to having new readers too!

I have never been famous. ( sadly ) But this blog is my pride and joy. It has documented 4 years of my life. You can look into the archives and find the ugly pictures of me as a lower secondary kid, all the ex-boyfriends I had, and all of the childish Audition stuff I was into.

Actually, that`s a bad idea. No, please don`t. Everyone deserves to start anew, don`t they?

Trying to come back to blogger was so difficult. I can`t get the updated features ;__; I`m getting a Paul Frank background up soon, be patient! :) There is no picture yet because... I have yet to find one that I like. Yup.

Make do with the original background for now, and enjoy your stay. HAHAHA.

Do you watch / read Gossip Girl? Do you like Blair/Serena/Jenny/Vanessa better? Who do you think Nate should be with?

2011-07-17T14:37:00.001+08:00

Do you watch / read Gossip Girl? Do you like Blair/Serena/Jenny/Vanessa better? Who do you think Nate should be with?

Answer here

This house is burnt to ashes and I`m no longer in between.

2011-05-30T15:52:00.003+08:00

Hey everyone! Surprising, I`m not dead yet! Been sleeping, sleeping, sleeping.. EVERYDAY I`M SLEEPIN' and I have amazingly huge eyebags heehee.

Had a great Saturday at UP's sports carnival. I think I enjoyed watching floorball the most cause how the hell do those peeps glide so fast with their sticks?! We did floorball in PE but I was like, pathetic, hit the ball once then chase after it with no strategy at all LOL. Nate and Rishi are in the AC floorball team, but it`s hard to imagine them gliding with their sticks HAHAHA.

I enjoyed being the emcee although the microphones kinda cocked up HAHAHA and the china basketball referees were fucking rude! They ate the ordered food which was not catered to them and demanded for us to get them spoons and raged when there were none. In the end we took the food back from them. LOL. No offence but I hate SOME foreign talents - Come to Singaporean from your LDC slums still expected to be treated like kings and queens. Especially those smelly, dirty and perverted men who push their way pass you in buses and hog all the seats. Yuck!

The China guy commented that I had an awful voice! Fuck you who`s the emcee you or me!? I should have given him a finger. LOL.

But apart from that everything went quite awesome imo, the prize presentations were smooth and the atmosphere was highhhhh and it was worth my evenings and late nights of sweat and blood. Like, 30 CIP hours from da whole thing. Yay! ( In case you didn`t know, my CIP hours are at like, 50. LOL )

Happy for those who`ve started their summer holidays, have a blast while I`m burying my head in books for another two weeks - but no, I`m happy to do it. Have really got to slowly switch to hardcore mug regime. Heehee.

And I hope everyone who took the Chinese paper today aced it :) cause higher chinese mock was ughhhhhhhhh as hell. Like a supreme idiot I cleverly forgot to bring any gao3 zhi thinking they will provide and I timely dropped my edict on the floor before the exam so it spoiled. Wtf! HAHAHAHAHA HELL YEAH. Things weren`t any better cause the bao zhang bao dao was weird - like comment on a boundary-free transport system for Singapore and I`m like huh!? What boundaries *ignorant bitch* and I know i totally bomb yi lun wen ( I failed twice already) so it had to be the narrative for me. I cocked up some stupid shit that was srsly the worst-sounding essay ever + plus no dictionary = no chim chi2 yu3. HAHAHA I`M A FAILURE HEEHEE.

Anyway I need a new edict can any kind soul who`s finished their chinese Os give theirs to me? 8D I really hate to buy a new one just to use it one more time....

Is today ACS IB openhouse? Well I heard it`s some time around now. IB is out of the question for me cause I know nuts about it - probably for the rich and elite lol. And I`m too lazy to find out!

I`ll stop here. Hee.

YOU JUST WOKE UP NAKED IN MY BED NEXT TO ME.... using only 3 words. What would you say to me? Be a good sport and play along! :D

2011-05-30T15:51:00.001+08:00

YOU JUST WOKE UP NAKED IN MY BED NEXT TO ME.... using only 3 words. What would you say to me? Be a good sport and play along! :D

Answer here

Got this feeling you can`t fight, like the city`s on fire tonight.

2011-05-27T15:22:00.002+08:00

"I had a choice, and I chose me."

You know what's it like to be happy? I seriously can`t comprehend why people say that when you're taking Os it`s going to be the most stressed, most fucked year of my life. It`s already May and time seems to slip away in a blink, and I`ve never felt the least tormented or tortured by the bustle of life. I feel great.

Maybe it`s just my literature teacher TGoh's analogy, that if you`re not sweating it and feeling the pain that means you ain`t pushing yourself hard enough. I guess that`s true, but I`m about to get my act together and bade those partying days farewell.

But I always have fun. Face it, I`m Jess, I always will. 8D Everywhere I go my life is a party.

Anyway, I wanted to thank everyone who`s been so kind in visiting my blog after the revival. My views shot up to 200+ in a couple of days - bypassing last`s month's pathetic readership already. Keep it up, love you peeps!

Oh ye stupid google locked me out of blogger for a couple of days with their stupid verification email that I never got in yahoo. Yahoo mail sucks - and I`m not the least ashamed to admit that my yahoo email is full of pornographic links ( which I don`t click ) cause like, years ago I signed up for this The Sims Forum to get like, enhancements for my game - and it turned to be a bunch of perverted assholes!

I have a new hotmail at infiniteonhigh@live.sg but still not intending to use it for msn/facebook/ anything.

Finally, term 2 is coming to a close. In a couple more months I`ll be leaving SC for greener pastures. As a person with little school spirit and a reputation for being an antisocial loser there, I should be thrilled. But no. I always have the high school dream of being the talk of the town and the most popular kid where guys flock to me like bees to a pot of honey ( I`m kidding 8D) but face it that`s not happening in JC HAHAHA.

Really enjoyed SC life because of a couple of people who made it so great. Scoops, LKY jokes, LAN jokes, Razak-phobias, the awesome art cohort `11, The benchgang and the lil everyday happenings that I`m gonna miss. Not gonna get sappy now when there's time left though. :)

Am disappointed with how crappily I`m doing, but disappointed, not deterred. It only goes to show how much more there is to be done.

Everything's on me, the drinks`re on me, the bitches, the hotel, the weed is all free

2011-05-22T15:51:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA Guess what? I`M BACK.

Bet all of you thought I`d never be back, judging from the major decline in my readership. Many of my favourite bloggers also seem to write less often now :( such as byesecret.blogspot.com and printedrosedoll.blogspot.com. I enjoyed reading their posts ttm!

Hahaha! Is that like, sad or what? But I don`t blame all you readers ( of lack thereof ) for leaving but I hope I`ll be able to win some peeps back again with a "minimum an entry a week" policy so bookmark this page down on your IE/Mozilla/Chrome/Opera/Safari cause you know you wanna check me out from time to time 8D

On a side note, you may still continue to address your comments to my formspring at http://formspring.com/infiniteonhigh :) IT IS NOT DEAD YET. If you ever encounter that there are too many pending questions that you can`t ask anymore pardon my laziness and please try again in a day or two cause I do my best to prevent my inbox from hitting the 1000 limit. Am very sorry ):

So what has changed over the last few months? Still the partygoer I am, a lil more sober and with a lil more sense of urgency for the coming O levels. My CA1 results were hell btw - and L1R5 of 14 with failing EMATHS. Despite that I`m inwardly pleased with my progress in my O level art coursework - I used to rant about how much I hated Art class and Razak but things are going a tad more smoothly now. Would love to upload my coursework and show you all but I can`t - guidelines but I will the moment submission deadline hits. Stay tuned!

I have so much to say but I`ll save it for when people start reading. :D

Time is up, I take it like a man

2011-03-16T16:26:00.002+08:00

To my new humble abode:

http://infinity-onhigh.tumblr.com

I will be residing there temporarily until further notice ( probably when O levels are over then I will come back to blogger and win my readers back D: but do follow me on tumblr if you`re in the club!)

This blog will be left for memories.

What will you do if you accidentally shit ( Pangsai or Lao Sai ) on your pants in bus?

2011-03-05T16:27:00.001+08:00

What will you do if you accidentally shit ( Pangsai or Lao Sai ) on your pants in bus?

Answer here

This is my mixed tape for her.

2011-02-02T11:24:00.001+08:00

Hi there! C:
I`ve been real busy ( and lazy ) to post hence it`s been more than a week! Then I checked the visitor counter for last month and ohmygoshzxc it went down by more than half! MORE THAN HALF THAT`S LIKE -700 PEOPLE T__T READERS COME BACK!

Looking forward to the Chinese New Year, peeps! I am! Well I nearly am, minus the studying part. Only the steamboat, goodies and a lil bit of blackjack.

Oh and happy birthday to me! Thankyou for all your wishes, currently 120++ from Facebook, like 5 from twitter, and 5 from texts!? Thanks awesome people but well, I decided I`d make my birthday speech after the whole thing hoho.

Okay I need to go~

Get me with those green eyes as the lights go down

2011-01-24T20:50:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone!The tagboard is now gone from my blog because it serves little purpose, and all of you spammers ): I don`t entertain any of your ads. Please direct all your comments to my formspring, heehee. I`ll be happy to entertain you there instead!

It`s Monday and I just came back from art class, the start of a very routine week. Art will probably be taking priority in the next six months of my life because the O level coursework is damn important. ): So, why the hell am I here? Heez.

To update a post for bby and I`s first month. First month is such an achievement okay! And my hair has grown so long it`s sexy ttm ^_^ Bought this gay pink shirt as present but I couldn`t resist camwhoring in it first. ;) SUITS ME BETTA THAN HIM RIGHT. Ignore the cui face laaa.

To entertain you, I`ve decided to put up an ahlian version. 100% edited okay! Although I too lazy to add the fake eyelashes and mascara and loads of foundation :) All in the name of fun!

Act cute face ttm! It`s now my facebook pp HAHAHA.

Okay shall stop digressing. Had Swensons at Nex, although I`m like regular customer there already, it was still a pretty special meal. I love coit tower and their sambal grilled fish! (Y)

I`d never tell bby because he is damn vain already but he`s seriously cute ttm. ;) It`s just the annoying truth that people who are narcissistic are actually really as hot as they think they are. *Ahem me ahem :D* There`s just this attractive aura about people who walk with confidence. I like.

Keven taught me how to set a passcode for my iTouch so bby cannot play LOL. But he guessed it in like, two tries. Damn, it was a hard code. It wasn`t like, 1234. It was 5683. ( If you can decode it, you`re nearly as smart as I am :B) It didn`t even have any pattern. LOL. Anyway I`m damn suagu when it comes to the use of iTouch ):

Irresistible grilled sambal fish. :) The meal was supposed to be on me cause I ripped bby off for Christmas at Cafe Cartel already LOL. But he was damn gei kiang and claimed he`s rich so he ended up footing the forty+ dollar bill. Again. Don`t underestimate my appetite kay thin girl but must drink soup, buy drink, desert, ice cream and main course ^_^

Beef baked rice for bby. In the menu they wrote it as some chimology thing we both cannot pronounce. LOL. Bby forced me to flag the waiter cause he was afraid of pronouncing it wrongly and embarrassing himself. HAHAHA. In the end we just pointed at the thing like, " this" as if we were mute. LOL.

Zilian seh. C: Anyway your arms look damn short hence you look damn fat LOL

But so happy to meet up cause I haven`t seen him for like, a week?And got back my earphones ( Sam`s actually), no more listening to Cotton On`s five dollar earpiece. And he got me an Everlast bagpack ;) I love it heh! :B With a nice card inside somemore. I didn`t even write him a note HAHA I`m seriously damn unromantic.

Kkay that`s all for now ;) Stay tuned lovelies!

Fighting time and space.

2011-01-22T15:37:00.002+08:00

Hi, I`m this little guy here. ^^v

There are like, no pictures of me to put up because my life has been so mundanely boring since school started.

It`s routine - Take hesitantly long to wake up, snailspeed to the LRT station, glomp down a $1.30 can of Iced Milo from buzz at the interchange and sleep my way on 156 to school. Wait for school to end, art class/ remedial/ cca/ rejoice in going home. Do shitloads of work, revise for a test, revise if there`s no work, all this while continuously tabbing on the screen of my iTouch on twitter. Then go to bed.

Weekends are only a little bit more special. While other people are declaring themselves a break from school life, I`ve to catch up on all the sleep I`ve been deprived, all the work I`ve slacked off and do my art - which most people don`t have. ):

In other words, I`m a real nerd. HAHA.

Real thankful for all my other nerding sidekicks because I feel so much better to have `em fighting alongside with me. Jennie, who`s been so determined to pass Sec3 Maths, Joel, fellow O leveler, Joey, my four-year companion in SC misery, the benchtroupe, and the occasional other buddy!

Heading off to town with Faye in an hour ;) Hey I`m not that of a bookworm after all.

My sixteenth birthday is coming, and I don`t think much of it. No point throwing a party because all my friends are fellow o levelers who have already died to mugging hell and deactivated their facebooks and twitters. Nobody`s in the mood! Next, it`s on reunion dinner night - who`s so free? I might go countdown-ing with friends, like " THREE, TWO, ONE, MY BIRTHDAY IS OVER! HAPPY NEW YEAR!" Haha. Also bby will be in Cambodia ;)

Here`s what I want for 2011 - Everytime I`m asked about goals/ ambition/ wishes/ prayers I no longer stutter and shake my head - I know exactly what I want - 3 POINTS L1R5, 8A1S. ;luv That`s like, my life motto for 2011.

And other superficial stuff would include:

- Green and blue monocolour topman shirts in XS
- More liquid eyeliner ( Yes, finished mine heehee)
- Pink flats from Covet I saw at Far East Plaza
- Eyelash glue, nail glue
- Those floral skirts from Cotton On that`re like, $7.50 but they got no size ): 2~8 ftw
- Alot of other stuff I will come up with sooner or later.

The best thing is that I bought the light blue Cotton On shorts I wanted for hell long - Because they were thirty bucks and I would never spend like, more than ten bucks on a pair of shorts but I got them at twenty, so happy! ;)

I realised alot of people do read my blog and catch up with my life, so thanks much! Emily, Alyssa, my cell members, heheh.

This is a rather long and wordy update already. I`ll be back! ;)

Time has no hold on me.

2011-01-14T18:57:00.002+08:00

Hi I`m back in action! My blog`s very much reader-deprived since I have so little time to post ( and no updates at all ) since school started. ): Readers, come back!

That`s not much I have to talk about. Just going to share my joy with you guys. Yes, O level results were released last Monday and

I GOT A1!

Yes for Chinese and a whopping distinction for Chinese Oral. Happy or what? Anyway, I feel like my Chinese has improved truckloads since my extreme hardcore efforts before the O levels. I just got 53/70 in like, a higher chinese compo, which I haven`t gotten since like, Secondary One, and tyco-ed a cloze passage - 8/10 but still!

If my Chinese did really improve I guess that`s one good thing to be thankful for that came out of my relationship with Des. Motivation!

We got our O level Final Year Art Project titles already. What the hell am I going to do .... Imma consult Phoebe for help before Mr. Razak insults my "creative process" again. No more homework! No more putting up with shit! This is the last straw, HAHA.

I have been so busy and tired. Bby`s been real understanding when I was sick he delivered Subway to my door heehee with an extra large ice lemon tea and he got all the right sauces and veg I wanted ^_^ Such a sweetheart. I had a terrible fever last weekend and missed two days of school ( hence the week seemed so short ). It was 40 degree celcius! Beat that HAHAHA. I thought it was going to fry my brain. Felt like shit.

And bringing me to eat whatever I want cause I`m such a glutton, even if it costs a bomb heheh.

More news soon~

It`s your life. It`s your fight.

2011-01-08T17:08:00.002+08:00

Hello world! Enjoying your first weekend? I`m suffering from a terrible case of flu despite panadol. Which totally throws me of my schedule of truckloads of homework ):

I`d like to thank everyone who has been so helpful to show me around at Ngee Ann and Singapore Poly openhouse the last two days :)

2 more days to O levels results release. I know people are way more anxious than me because they have many subjects while I`ve only got one. In fact, I don`t even fret over it when I don`t think about it. Forget about sleepless nights. It`s more of resignation to fate than confidence, LOL. Perhaps I`m really not cut out to be an A1 - Chinese student. I should just settle for A2 ):

I think I`ve chosen Temasek Junior College as my current goal - Five points for L1R5.

So far, school has been going alright if you don`t count the amount of work and my inability to do it. ): I am struggling in both maths because I have forgotten the formulae ( Was planning to brush up today but this flu set me off ). I`ve forgotten quite some chem though I`m supposedly strong in it, and much of biology. Looking forward to biology with Mr. Jo this year though, no more Mrs. Cha means no more sleeping in class and slacking but really, catching up! Oh and ss, and elect geog, forgot all my content! I`m not that worried cause all that can be remembered unlike math ;)

AND ART. 1 and a half pieces to go.

I am so sick of obligations, because there are so many of them. It`s already a drag that I have to go to school and I have to do my homework. I don`t feel like having to account to any more people. I don`t feel like having to conform to anyone's values. I wish people would stop imposing on me values I don`t have. I don`t blame anyone for the mistakes I`ve made, I deserved them. But maybe I just don`t want to be a perfected hypocrite. I`d rather be real, with emotion and insecurities.

Who knows what 2011 holds in time to come? Despite the stress and workload, it might be awesome. ;)

Awfully sick now. ): Hope I feel better by night cause I really need to revise maths. Getting subway!

Maybe we`re trying. Trying too hard.

2011-01-03T16:13:00.002+08:00

Hi. Screw you all for not reading my blog! ;)

School starts tomorrow. Packed your bags? For me, hell no. I haven`t even done half of my homework. ):

Goodluck on your first day!

In the end I want to be standing at the beginning with you.

2011-01-02T22:59:00.002+08:00

Happy 2011 Everyone! ( Inserts random shit here that I always say. )

Firstly apologies for the lack of updates. You guys haven`t been faithful with supporting my formspring and tagboard either! Heh. I blog for myself, so I will continue anyway.

As time passes, I will get busier and busier. Ohye, fuck O levels! I think after slacking my holiday away (regret TTM) I can forget about being like that Ow Wei Yi what`s her name again overachiever that Mrs. Low`s so proud of. I`ll be down to Earth and settle for 6 points for my L1R5 and go to St. Andrews JC instead. Okay fine six points is an ambitious target but I wanted 2 points at first, so ye :)

Less hanging out + Less partying + Less time = Less blogposts! Boohoohoo ):

I have no time to make New Year`s Resolutions, knowing I won`t keep them anyway. HAHA. I`ll dig up the old ones someday ;)

Update soon, I promise!

I can`t believe what I just gave away now I can`t take it back.

2010-12-26T14:06:00.004+08:00

Merry Christmas!

If you`re wondering why the photo comes with a watermark it`s because cheapskate people like me want editing software to censor their pimples and make them look chio-er without having to pay a cent, hence resort to taking screenshots instead. LOL.

You guys spoke, and I heard. Am thinking of replacing my tagboard with a comment section, but I still haven`t figured out how to enable blogger comments ( How dumb, I know. ) Since the tagboard`s pretty much dead most of the time anyway, except for spammers and Zelia, LOL.

I hope you guys had a great Christmas too because mine was really awesome! Well mostly thanks to one special person who made my day ( or rather, my everyday) so amazing :)

It`s been great meeting so many new people over one weekend that my facebook friends went +10 plusplus heheh. Really enjoyed going to HoGc this weekend, even without Tristan, YiHao`s cell is superfriendly and awesome! And there are so many new faces at E402, we`re seeing a massive revival :)

The party Yh`s friend Chin How threw really brought the house down on Christmas Eve with buffet + bbq and much liquor heheheh. Only had a sip of Chivas - it sucked lol. I`m not an alcoholic, contrary to popular belief. Yes I tend to drown sorrows in drinking - but I am in control okay! There was also barcardi, red wine and vodka. Frankly, they all taste pretty much the same - revolting. No offence if you love alcohol lol, it`s just not me.

Didn`t get any sleep at all. K I think I`ve embarrassed Yh more than enough so I won`t state why. Heheh. Actually my secrecy kind of makes it sound even more wrong than it actually is. -__- It wasn`t like that kayyyy, whatever you guys are thinking! LOL.

The host has to be the most generous guy I`ve ever met - to give up his bedroom and two bottles of green tea ( big bottles, yes) to me. LOL. I`m such a green tea maniac. It calms my nerves. :)

What`s a blog post without camwhoring? Lol. Took them when Yh was in the shower.

Obviously I don`t have flawless skin like I do in the photo. Fake so what, looks nice ttm!

Compare the unedited versions. Fail right. LOL.

Went for Christmas dinner with dinner with Yh after the service :) It`s funny cause honestly when I first put up " Christmas dinner with my favourite dude" on my wishlist I didn`t have a clue who my favourite guy was yet. HAHA.

Oh HoGc did this awesome dance item for their Christmas service and I really like the song by Westlife. It`s called " When You`re Looking Like That. "Don`t underestimate older bands, they`re really good k!

The lyrics go:

How am I supposed to leave you now..? When you`re looking like that. I can`t believe what I just gave away ( My heart. ), now I can`t take it back. ♥

Why he forever wear until so nice one seh. LOL unfair. All his clothes so nice, he makes me feel like I need to go shopping! Cafe Cartel! (Y) If I stop craving all this expensive food I`ll probably be able to buy like, 3 new shirts a week LOL.

Poor guy I ripped him off so bad he had to go to the ATM to withdraw more money.But next time it`s my turn to pay for dinner, and I am looking forward to it. :)

Food speaks a thousand words. This must be the best christmas yet!

Happy boxing day! :)

You see love at first it`s summer time

2010-12-22T15:57:00.003+08:00

Hey I`m back. Haha awesome right I know. Got a new comp up and running in a matter of days with way better specs and actually fast SP2 that can run msn ( I have been deprived of the real live messenger for years ) and itunes.

And the source of all these computer troubles is :

My new friend. Sexy, no?
I bought him for a hundred bucks! Cheap much, and it`s in perfect working condition! A bit scratched, but knowing me it`ll be probably be scratched if it wasn`t already anyway, HAHA.

But the installing screwed up, which resulted in spoiling the whole OS. LOL.

Merry Christmas everyone! :)
I am so awesomely happy. Screw depression. Screw meds, screw them all counselors. I know happiness won`t always be here to stay but I know that my strength has overcome the world. My favourite new quote from tumblr:

" It`s not about who hurt you and broke you down, it`s about who was always there and made you smile again. "

Beginning with the awesome party at Faye`s last friday.

I think I was a bit overdressed compared to everyone else, HAHA.
Had a great time with everyone else, esp the food was awesum ttm. I cooked spaghetti heehee ( actually I just cheated and bought the sauce, shh don`t tell anyone !)

I`m really beginning to like Faye alot since we went to Bugis together. Not because she`s got a big house, but because she`s so nice and cute and she has a great sense of style and there`s so much we could do together ( SHOP! SHOP! SHOP! ) Hope to spend more time with her in cell next year, ;luvluv!

Shall spare you all pictures of the great food in case you get hungry! :) In the end my dad came and drove all of us hougang-sengkang people like Kefei, Daniel, Dylan and Sab home. Nice right! Heh.

Me and Sab! And pocky sticks. The pictures are unedited btw, seriously no time to photoshop blemishes and zits on my face. HAHA. And everyone else: E402 ftw!

I kind of forgot how I spent my Saturday. I went to HoGc! Yes I was invited by Tristan ( we actually made a pact to attend each other's services LOL.) Met some really awesome people, seriously. *wink. And the worship was .. sensational. Everyone lifts their hands way higher than they do in CHC, I guess HoGc has more youths = more energy. LOL.

Went to dinner with his cell, they`re all supernice, and played monopoly deal. Then this guy Zac`s mum sent us all home ( although I was only meeting him for the first time, LOL. ) So nice!

Sunday - Awesome candlelight service. A pity I was late and I didn`t catch the rest of the cell. Josh, Dylan and his friends and I sat in an emo terrace by ourselves LOL.

" Why are all my self-shots emo, unoriginal and hide my eyes? " Haha I have small eyes and nice hair what! But my nose always ends up looking irritatingly big in pictures although it`s not in rl. It`s just ... sharp. HAHA. I love the animal prints dress but everyone keeps making fun of it since Ris Low. Old joke!

So chio right hahaha doesn`t this entice you to want to come for our Christmas drama already? For more details text me, facebook me/ twit me, formspring me. ANYTHING by this weekend!I`ll be super happy to accompany you!

There were so many new friends for candlelight that I was quite intimidating cause our cell never looked so big! But it`s an awesome thing :) Everyone got to know each other and we had Jap food at this Bedok place. The last time we went there was Dylan`s birthday. I gave him a leather jacket. I guess he must really hate it (or me) because he hasn`t even worn it once. ): It was also the time I broke a bottle of impotency pills or what shit at the GNC shop. Crap! HAHA it makes a funny story now.

Next, went to Sam and Nic`s house to make raisin cookies for Christmas. But in the end, we ate them all up. Aww, darn. Sam helped me to set up my iPod touch with their advanced mac-like comp. Lol.

I retardedly camwhored at their balcony.But the nightlights so chio right! I know I`ve raved and ranted about how nice the Ng family`s house is. It looks picture perfect! It even has its own pool room! ( Billards pool, not swimming pool.)

No pictures of the cookies. Sorry, but I assure you they were superyum. HAHA. Pictures of the disgusting wholemeal pasta we cooked for dinner though. It looked and tasted like WORMS.

But the sauce was real good... so was the meatballs! (Y) Chompchomp.

And the bed is five thousand bucks so you`ll never want to wake up again. How come I look like I`m wearing eyeliner when I`m not!?

Monday, made an impromptu trip to Sentosa! Was taking my toilet-bowl phone to LG to get repaired and a Simcard replacement ( Yes the aftermath of losing my phone ). YiHao`s a real sweetheart and he accompanied me there! :)

Went to Sentosa to walk! Spent hours in Candylicious and the chocolate shop (Y) Everything looks yummy ttm, although the stuff we bought was quite a disappointment. And the prices are very yummy too.

The restaurants looked so exotic and good. The prices were like, probably fifty a person a meal? HAHA. We stuck to good old burger king. Went to watch Narnia too, I loved it! At least it was easy to understand although I`ve only read one book from Narnia. Hahaha, nub. I had to watch Harry twice to grasp the plot.

HAHAHA, You`re famous now! (Y)

The mist at universal studios. I know everyone has gone but I still haven`t gone on the rides kay! Suagu much. ): And I`m wearing the topman shirt that both Nat and I have :) Suits me better!

I think this is a long enough update. There`s much more, but I`m stopping here with a last picture. Enjoy your Christmas peeps!

Lord I`m doing all I can, to be a better man.

2010-12-19T20:57:00.003+08:00

Okay now that I`m back, here`s a real update.

I didn`t end up spending the night cause I didn`t want to get into deepshit again when Sam`s parents come home in the morning and find me in the house. Imagine those worst-case scenarios - You wakeup, dash out of the house and just as you turn the door lock to leave, the parents are standing right outside. HAHA you know you`re so so screwed!

Took the last bus home and still had to cab somemore. I lost my bloody phone !@#$%, not a big loss I know, but I really needed a dumb phone. I guess looking on the bright side I won`t have to worry about people not replying my texts HAHAHA how carefree :) But I feel bad cause many awesome people can`t reach me.

Getting my Simcard back today, but it`ll be awhile before I get a spare phone. Finally sending my LG to repair, no choice obviously! It`ll take months. They suck.

And I just bought a new iPod Touch 3G! Imagine no bucks and no phone. ): But I`ve facebook 24/7 as long as there`s wifi. LOL.

Idk what`s up with my parents, but perhaps it`s a good thing. I only sent one dumb text home saying I was staying out the night and they never even called me. In the past my dad would`ve been like, Hell no you`re coming home right now and I`d have to beg. And when I actually reached home at 1 a.m, everyone was asleep. They didn`t even say a thing this morning. Good or bad?

Downloading Windows SP2 cause iTunes needs it to run. =__= Such a waste of memory space just to prevent hackers. Meh.

I`ve a whole lot of camera pictures but I`m too lazy for them now. LOL. Let me get to the iTunes first. :)

Leave the edge and fly, we`re finally alive.

2010-12-18T13:18:00.003+08:00

Early merry christmas.

I`m beginning to realise a lot of things. Maybe some changes are not so bad after all. I feel so secure now, so immune.

It`s a far cry from what someone would feel after going through hell and watching your life fall apart before your very eyes. Maybe things have gotten so bad to the extent that they can only get better. :)

So all this while I just watched on as the friendships ( and relationships ) with the people I once loved so much and trusted and confided in reduce themselves to flames. As they left, my happiness and hopes went along with them.

Maybe it`s a bad idea to invest your life in other people after all. Having to worry about when you`ll receive their one little text. Blowing a fuss over the smallest issues yet nobody really understands that it`s because you care about them.

Loving, leaving, round and round we go again.

What do you think?

I`m so hungry. Ah. I will update about Christmas at Faye`s later. Pictures are on facebook alr. I want subway! :)

You gave my life a song to sing.

2010-12-16T17:16:00.002+08:00

Hey,

If you google my gay full name even with spaces in between you`ll arrive at my blog HAHAHA. That proves that I am awesome and blogger stats show that people actually google me okay!

I know that`s nothing much to be happy about ... Haha but still. Candlelight is this weekend and Tristan is coming Sunday morning! Excited ^_^ I`ve asked Poodle, Jennie, Eustace and some other random people too :)

Decided to make a short post before I head out to meet Nat. Grrr I`m starving. God knows why he wanted us to go to Mind Cafe. LOL it`s such a Happy Hour place. Reminded of my embarrassing behaviour the last time I went there with benchmates. Everyone thought I was drunk. LOL.

Smoove turns one on the 23rd of December heehee, I help advertise. And there`s an awesome party at Zirca to bring the house down. K for more details I`ll be happy to direct you to RVSP on the event. :)

Here`s what I have been up to ....

Ya I know a bit outdated la now then craze over them when four seasons are already over. Haha but it`s seriously good despite being bimbotic and all they do is have sex all the time! LOL. The book is so well written * sweat*

And Nate Archibald a.k.a Chace Crawford is hot!

K elaborate more next time I`ve to go now ;)

Someday I`ll see the light.

2010-12-15T13:41:00.002+08:00

Just because I left my blog to rot for awhile doesn`t mean you don`t spam my formspring and leave my tagboard in its state of death okay! Evil readers much. I used to get like 3 questions a day, these few days I`m getting like, one? LOL.

I love Rapunzel! :) If it`s still showing you guys should head to watch it. Honestly I doubt you will find it as fascinating and enchanted as me because when you`re in a state like I was your emotions are more vulnerable to what you see and hence you`ll appreciate the movie more.

Well the only thing that sucked was the way it ended and I shouldn`t spoil it for anyone here!

The best part about Disney movies is the songs, even though the stories are just lies. LOL. But`s it`s the magic. I was first obsessed with " I`ve Got A Dream" by the thugs, but the more I listened to the sappy scene the more the song " I See The Light" stuck. Don`t get me wrong, I usually hate sappy scenes. One line especially stuck, and that`s why it`s now in the picture above. :)

I was into making my own tumblr images ( not those scenery naisenaise ones though, but kind of like those word ones that leilockheart does ), I guess that`s why she`s so popular. Actually it`s not as easy as you think okay, you`ve to arrange the words in a way that it doesn`t look ugly and gay ): How does she do it!?

What`s your dream?

HAHA Mine`s probably to become super chio with enormous piles of money and of course a celebrity blogger so I can be invited to luxurious restaurants for food tasting ( Okay, I was just kidding about the food tasting part, I`m not that greedy. ) And to find love heheh but I can save that for the future instead.

And most of all to have people I can count on. I`ve learnt one thing - Without people, you`re nothing. And someday, I will see the light. ♥

Christmas is coming, love the festive season ttm. Candlelight is this weekend and Christmas is next week! Excited much. :) We`re having a party Friday night at Faye`s house ( I love her so much now!) and I`m cooking a megapot of spaghetti so you betta come if you wanna try it okay. Super looking forward to Victor`s Shepherd`s pie and Sab`s roast chicken HAHA. And also the secret gift exchange, I hope I got someone really awesum, like last year.

Saturday - Heading to HoGc for the first time cause I promised Tristan to attend his service :)

Streetlights, people.
Yeah gay face but I love the camera night effects a hell lot. Always stalked peepur and I`m like, how da hell do they do it!? But now I know :)

And that`s Gerald`s Fox shirt! Been spending alot of time swimming and at the gym with G, just close friends of course :-) It`s seriously good to have someone to be there these days, but ultimately I just have to stand back up myself.

I really had a blast on Monday night strolling down town with Faye in the beautiful city lights. Seriously lazy to edit the picts, I look ugly so be it!

Actually pictures are not a good way to judge how someone looks in reality. Obviously everyone wants to look better and make a good impression in cyberspace but I promise you all my unedited pictures are exactly how I look in reality. The edited ones, not so alike la, I have more blemishes and uglier hair and less white teeth HAHA.

Good old Pastamania. Mushroom baked rice heheh and minestrone soup. I have a terrible appetite lately, but I`ve managed to sleep well for the last few days oh hallelujah. In fact yesterday I went without breakfast and lunch and couldn`t even finish my dinner. LOL. If you take me out for a luxurious meal in an attempt to cheer me up it`ll work, but I am likely to not finish it and waste money. LOL

Cream of chicken. And my mushroom baked rice. It`s damn budget k the whole meal cost merely ten bucks + with a huge drink :)

Faye`s awesome huge burger. Same price! :) We also painted our nails and shopped and shopped. Bye red nails they`re now pale pink now :) And also bought new shoes like at last, Kon`s going to be so happy cause she sees me wearing my dad`s oversized slippers to cell all the time HAHA.

Friends. There are so many of them. They are just there to be happy with and make good memories together. But many are called, few are chosen. Ultimately, when you hit rock bottom you begin to figure out who are the ones you can`t count on and who are the ones that stick with you through it all. The ones you should keep, and the ones that are just optional.

Well, now I know. But that doesn`t mean I start throwing all my friends away lol. I`ll just keep them for the good times. :)

Been reading Gossip Girls. I`m only a few pages into it and the Nate guy turns me on so bad. LOL. Did they have to describe him in such detail ... * sweat * Anyway everyone in that book is flawless and rich and they have everything but they`re still miserable anyway. Tsktsk.

Not writing anymore.

I know there`s good times behind that pain.

2010-12-11T11:59:00.003+08:00

Life hasn`t been a bed of roses. In fact it has been a far cry from that. But it goes on - and I`m determined to pick myself up.

On a lighter note I wanted to share about my luxurious lunch at NYNY yesterday. Courtesy of some kind soul who would rather remain anonymous!

Okay I`ve wanted to try NYNY all my life ( actually not really but I did think about it before ) but I never got the chance to. Prices are Jack Placeish, like 20 bucks a person? Okay I can`t say that the food wasn`t good because I shouldn`t judge the whole restaurant based on something I ate but what I ordered was merely average. Hahaha actually pastamania makes pasta just as good at like, half the price!

Isn`t this the nicest picture of Ice Lemon Tea you`ve ever seen? LOL. Okay as in the photography not the drink I know fizzy cocktail ones look way nicer :)

Most expensive soup I have ever drank - It was six bucks. But well it`s the size of a dinner plate. :) I love minestrone! The meatballs were kinda sucky.

Okay I ain`t writing anymore. Update soon :)

The script

2010-12-10T12:11:00.002+08:00

I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do?

How can I move on, when I`m still in love with you?

Cause if one day you wake up and find that you`re missing me,

and your heart starts to wonder where on this Earth I could be,

thinking maybe you`d come back here to this place that we`d meet

and you`d see me waiting for you on this corner of the street.

I`m not moving.

It`s like I wrote, every note, with my own fingers.

2010-12-08T19:38:00.005+08:00

I have a new favourite music band :) And I love their album: Everything In Transit. Anyway I have it at home ( My sister, actually) and hey it cost forty bucks.

I would say a cross between Owl City and JamisonParker? It`s one of a kind and it`s uberfantastic. Eccentric lyrics like Owl City, but they figured out you didn`t want to listen to songs describing scenery. The romance aspect is vague and subdued unlike, hmm Taylor Swift. I`m not against Taylor Swift but well, she`s like tumblr personified. LOL.

Hmm I took pictures recently but they all sucked so I didn`t end up blogging any! Christmas is coming hence I cordially invite you all to watch our very Christmas production:

HEROES OF FAITH ACADEMY

Now, here`s why you should come. I believe all of you love me very much and will not hesitate to support an occasion that me and all my friends have worked so hard to put together! Secondly, it is FREE FOR ALL and I can almost guarantee that it`s going to be worth your time. I was there last Christmas and last Easter and they never disappointed me. And it`s only about two plus hours, it ain`t going to eat much of your time. You are also welcome to join all of us for a awesome time afterwards, be it lunch/dinner heheheh.

And I, yours truly will be personally escorting my guests. I`ll sit next to you, I`ll even go to your house (even if its two hours away) and personally escort you to the venue if you ain`t sure how to reach there :) *I won`t be escorting on Boxing day though, but please still come :D*

SO PLEASE SAY YOU`LL GO ;) *Puppy-dog face*

If you don`t know me, you may enquire about details at my tagboard, formspring or add me on facebook. I`ll be happy to let you know more. :) If you don`t need that you can still go without my invitation, really.

If you know me, or know me vaguely, I`ll be happy to invite you personally! I`ve already asked some people who are close to me but if I haven`t asked you yet and you`d love to go please drop me a text/ facebook me/ formspring me. Anything as long as I`ll see it.

Here are the dates, venues and time slots. Because there are practically sessions for every day and every time so NO EXCUSE SAYING YOU CAN`T MAKE IT OKAY! :D

So excited for Christmas! I`ve a tree down on my shopping list! Not to mention presents for everyone! :) I think I`ll just get all the guys Topman shirts. HOW GENEROUS AM I. *faithful supporter of Topman* Our cell is doing this secret Santa thing and it`s awesomely fun heehee! Last year I got Mingyee and QianYu got me :) She got me 10 bucks of Dragonica cash which I didn`t end up using, so it went to Dylan instead. Lol.

And of course there`ll be the countdown sleepover and the appreciation. :) Feeling guilty cause I`ve not started mugging and I`ve only studied like, an hour!? LOL SHIAT. I spent five hours today completing the drama series I`ve been so into! It`s awesome! Some parts make me emo ttm *sobsob* but it`s mostly comedy. :)

Shopping tmr! :)

Streetlights, people.

2010-12-07T18:05:00.002+08:00

Addicted to Youtube tv dramas ttm. Episode eleven now! I`ve been watching nonstop! Can`t wait to get to the part when the exasperated women finally elope HAHAHA.

Going to give tuition soon :) I hope Des is enjoying his first day at work.

Nat`s coming back by tomorrow. If he forgot my souvenir Imma kill him :P

Oh, and thanks for the overwhelming formspring response HAHAHA. 40 questions answered, keep them coming~

You drew me out from the deepest sea.

2010-12-05T20:49:00.003+08:00

Good old tumblr is back! Haha I don`t really want my gigantic face everywhere on this blog - Of course you see awhile also will sian already right? LOL. I`m that narcissistic I never get tired of looking at myself HAHA.

I should start learning some eye makeup. My makeup skills are hideous and I end up looking 10 times worse than when I first start -__- Idk how come the blusher enlarges my zits and the eyeshadow makes me look like a getai singer. And mascara hurts ttm! You know how much effort it takes to pull those sticky blots of black ink off your tender eyelashers? OUCH. Not to mention it`s stiff and uncomfortable, and UGLY. ):

That`s why I say I don`t know how to do it right. Jeloz of those pretty girls out there with eyes that look like they were made for barbie. Mine are small and plain and with blardy huge eyebags. ):

Today`s post is about Valerie`s water baptism! Congratulations, Valerie! :) Svc was great as usual, got to know a new friend Sab brought, was snacking chips while listening to PP`s totally awesome message on dreams :) Yes I have a huge dream to become a famous blogger. LOL. Anyway his name is Yi Sheng and he`s a really nice guy, offering me strepsils seeing that I was coughing LOUDLY throughout the preaching ( embarrassment much)

Water baptism is a religious thing in Christianity (well, I think Catholics get confirmed or something) and it`s symbolic of dying and rising again with Jesus Christ! Okay if you guys are like, " catch no balls " I`ll let the pictures do the talking.

Congratulations to all the baptism candidates! :) Honestly I feel a bit awkward getting totally drenched in white clothes -__- Well I`d wear my skinny jeans cause they`re thick enough ( hopefully ) and you probably can`t see through them even if they`re wet. :P Well, for the shirt I ain`t got any thick white shirts, does Des' SJI hoodie come close? Just kidding. :D

After that everyone recites some holy scripture :) You get a new name after baptism. What`s mine? Of course it`d be Jessica. LOL.

This is how water baptism works ( in case you didn`t already know ). The pastor has a saddistic look on his face LOL. Okay, I`m just kidding about that. :)

I always wondered how I could go for baptism wearing contact lenses in case the water gets into them or something. Well I don`t want to wear specs cause everyone is going to take alot of pictures after. LOL. I have always worn contacts while in a pool and when I shower and I`ve never had a problem though.

The heartening moment was when it was this elderly man`s turn. He slowly walked down the steps into the pool. Yes, our church has its own swimming pool /haolian C:

You are never too old or too young to be part of the wonderful kingdom of God :) Finally, it was Valerie`s turn!

Congratulations girl! Looks like she enjoyed it heheh. I remember Jinning telling me how all the water went into her nose or something. Augh! Well the rest of the ceremony went something like this:

And yes part of it requires eating salt. -__- I think the salt is a joke ( but it isn`t, it`s of holy significance! ) more like a forfeit than a formal ceremony cause everyone just starts laughing. And you can`t even pick up a pinch of salt and swallow it - they pour it in your mouth. D:

Regarding the background, no we are not in the wilderness being tempted by the devil or something it`s just some shrubbery in the nice rooftop garden next to the pool :)

Unfortunately for Valerie, Victor`s salt pouring skills were off.

POOR GIRL. SHE SWALLOWED ALL OF THAT. Bleah and you are not allowed to spit it out! It must sting. D: And lastly you get a crunchy apple and presents. heehee :)

CHC`s Christmas drama`s sneak preview is out! Imma invite all of you guys AND DON`T YOU SAY NO HAHAHA. You just have to come with the awesome me! I`ll get the invitations sent out soon :) Will even put up an advert here. Stay tuned!

You`re my weakness.

2010-12-04T13:27:00.002+08:00

Photography is seriously fun! The problem with tumblr is that everyone reblogs each other`s pictures and nobody really produces the images. If I had a tumblr ( Which I probably won`t, cause I`m so lazy!) I`d make my own original images HAHA.

It would be so awesome to blog (and take photos) as a profession. You`re doing something you like, and rolling in big bucks without having to worry about having a career - it`s your career. Bloggers often get invited to free fancy food tasting of like, 10 course-meals or something, or sponsered trips to overseas as long as they blog about it! Fun and enjoyable much! :) Oh, and you get paid thousands for one advertising entry, and people pay you loads to post adverts on your site. AND YOU CAN BRING FRIENDS, SO COME BE MY FRIEND NOW BEFORE I BECOME RICH AND FAMOUS :)

I`d love to become a celebrity blogger! :) But I`m not always interesting. And I have like, 1.1k hits a month while Xiaxue, the region's most popular blogger has hits beyond 100k daily. But I can dream, can`t I? ;)

Still, getting more than thirty people to read your blog each day is an achievement okay! Because blogger is now a dying trend and tumblr is the in thing. Not to mention majority of readers are strangers 8) Hi there!

Have you guys all joined the Facebook cartoon campaign against Child Violence yet? ;) Don`t bother trying to convince me that Lord Voldemort is not a childhood cartoon k! LOL. Well, he ain`t human and that qualifies! :D

I think I`ll do a post on Picnik soon - I know I`ve been gushing about the software for awhile now but I really want to show you guys how great it is~

Don`t stop supporting my formspring! Thanks thanks :)

Because the night

2010-12-03T14:35:00.004+08:00

*His picture removed to prevent scaring small kids*

Lord Voldemort is so cute HAHA. What`s wrong with you guys? Why won`t anyone agree with me? LOL. He`s bald, he`s got practically no nose and greenish teeth. And a bit too much eyeshadow. How is that, not cute!?

Why is it that all evil things are adorable? Like that devil iPhone case? When Nathanael and I went to watch Toy Story 3 I couldn`t stop obsessing over the evil purple bear - but it was so cute that no one would believe it could be so evil!

Wouldn`t hurt a fly, would it?

I guess evil characters are pretty much like sin. Sin is glorious in its outward appearance, (if you`ve ever had bible study) like that mouthwatering, tempting burger you`re just dying to eat and you don`t feel the remorse until you gulp it down - a couple of bucks wasted on a greedy stomach and all the fats and oils guggling down your digestive system HAHA IN YOUR FACE.

You know what sucks? I found out I`m allergic to Lakerol.

They are like, yummy sugarfree chewy candy that comes in awesome flavours, my favourite being Lychee, ( not grape, surprising!) Forestberries, Grape, Cassis ( i`ve never heard of such a fruit but it is damn nice) Strawberry ( Parry`s favourite), Green apple and more.

Idk wtf is wrong with me seriously but everytime I need Lakerol I get flu for the entire day HAHA Yeah how did you know I`m having it now you sucka and I frequently fail to read the tiny sentence at the back that says:

Excessive consumption may produce laxative effect

It`s like the second freaking time I had diarrhoea from eating this la. LOL. Same goes for Ricola, maybe I`m allergic to sweeteners cause my body craves real sugar? LOL.

Does that mean when I`m diabetic (choichoi) I can`t eat sweets for the rest of my life? * FML.

People who use the word "freaking" (like moi) it`s so obvious you want to say the f-word but for some reason you can`t la HAHAHA. I believe in my blog content being PG-13 :)

Okay I`m in a good mood today so I shall write about the few little things in life that keep me going :) Things, not people OKAY. So don`t feel jeloz if you`re not there heheheh.

*I do not advertise. Nobody paid me any money to promote their products and neither is my blog popular enough to be an advertising platform. Everything is purely out of my own opinion and if you think it sucks that`s your own freaking problem! HAHA.

1. Jasmine Green Tea

has replaced Chrysanthemum tea as my new favourite non-fizzy drink heheh. Who cares if it gives you small boobs or kills sperms or something it is freaking nice :) *craves for some now*, but currently Pepsi is stocked in my fridge.

2. Watson`s multi-purpose solution

This is the best contact lens solution I have ever used and mind you it`s not cheapskate OKAY just because it`s not some famous brand they carry in the optical shop. Well I think I`ve used nearly every single brand, ReNu, Aqua-whatever it called LOL and I still love this small bottle. Stumbled upon it when I slept over at my friend`s house and needed some solution desperately so i just grabbed the cheapest bottle off the rack at Watsons!

It`s so good when you put in the lens there is this cooling feeling on your eyeball heh no it doesn`t sting or anything! ( Not my problemo if it doesn`t work for you) Plus one bottle is cheap enough and compact enough for you to bring everywhere, for those financially restrained people like will rejoice over not having to buy your solution in bulks of expensive bucks.

Don`t forget to check with your optician first okay 8) Go blind don`t come find me!

3. Lecture Pads with pretty covers

It`s blue paper inside somemore - doesn`t that keep you awake in class and makes you want to copy more notes ;) So what if it costs a bit more than plain old white boring lecture pads?

4. Axe Oil is my best friend - Joey hates it ttm, she`s like GET THAT STINKING THING AWAY FROM ME. Fine it doesn`t smell fantastic but it feels damn great k. ;) Especially when you have an irritated nose like moi.

I even brought it to O levels HAHA.

Okay. I ain`t writing anymore :)

Nothing`s ever going to change.

2010-12-02T18:17:00.006+08:00

Starbucks is giving away free drinks tonight! When you`re reading this you`ll probably be too late heehee - the offer`s 5p.m to 7p.m I think. I didn`t go cause the queue`s like wts. I don`t like starbucks enough!

Thanks for supporting my formspring! Even though the questions I get are so weird keep them coming heehee they make my day okay! I`m so obsessed with this new widget.

I just need to get away. A little booze, a noisy dark lan with guns firing and it`ll all fade into nothingness. Oh, happiness.

I`m a pile of dead fur

2010-12-01T12:27:00.005+08:00

Hi there. I`m back to post by popular demand, or rather by Des' demand.

Had a hectic week, and I don`t think I`ll ever finish updating about the past few days. Anyway Dad`s back and the camera`s back too - with plenty of pictures of 50-year old women on vacation in Malaysia -__- Check his facebook to see more HAHA.

Tomorrow is Des' birthday. Happy sixteen boy! Must wait for me to go clubbing okay. LOL. 2 more months and I`ll turn sixteen too :) May your birthday be the best birthday yet. Enjoy all the good food okay!

Should head to blackshot later. I`m still tired despite having slept continuously for nearly 20 hours LOL. Ugh. I`m itching to L4D! Where are Parry and Sam and everyone else!?

I SHALL START WORK. *DETERMINATION*

Mum wants me to clean my room. Ugh *dislike* I can`t cheer Leon up. ): Poodle is so omgbbq funny. Cheer up please? :D

Leon: Work! Study!
Me: Strong poo!
Leon: Dead poo
Me: Resurrected poo!
Leon: Died again poo....

Idk if I should do the ABC about me note on facebook since people usually hate responding to these kind of things. But like, 284638 people have tagged me in it geez.

There are just some things I can`t stop thinking about that I`ve given up trying to. Okay maybe I will do the note. :) Procrastination is overwhelming me - i`ve not started cracking for the part of the project I promised to get done weeks ago. But there`s one more month right? Real big deal.

I might start downloading some nice themes for Des' phone ( my spare phone now ) That`s the nicest part about Nokia phones heehee. I asked daddy about an iPhone and he said he`ll give me his in 2012, that`s like wtf!? Anyway iPhone 5 is coming out soon and his is iPhone 3 and in 2012 there`ll already be iPhone 10 or something. God knows.

I need money desperately. ):

Maybe I should get a job or something. Beats rotting anyway.

Anyway, introducing...

FORMSPRING

For all of you anonymous freaks this is the best widget to ask me anything you want. I will never find out who you are, and I will answer all of your questions about anything ( about anything, but well I can give a rhetorical answer if I don`t feel like telling you!)

How does this work? Check the left sidebar out under my profile, and click on Formspring - Infiniteonhigh and you`ll be directed to my page. :) You could try typing in that little space but from what I know the send button doesn`t work -__- Kudos to you if it does.

I wasn`t going to get a formspring before cause it`s exactly the thing some attention-seeking people do ( Kay, no offence to anyone - i didn`t mean it that way) but I`m not that popular so it`ll probably rot to its death. But it`s kind of fun actually heehee.

Get your own formspring here: http://formspring.com, and if you add me as a friend I might ask you a thing or two!

Oh did I mention I have twitter? It ain`t on my blog anymore cause it never loads. I might try again though. PLEASE FOLLOW ME: http://twitter.com/infiniteonhigh

If you can`t get over it, then don`t try.

2010-11-27T14:20:00.002+08:00

I want one of those right now. (Y)

Christmas is coming people! Yes three more weeks I know I`m overreacting but I need to start storing up the bucks to get my peeps' presents and making my wishlist to Santa and decorating my tree. ( Yes, really)

In other words, can`t wait! Who`s got time to sit around wallowing in self pity anymore?

I shall present to you ( and Father Christmas) my own VERY AMBITIOUS WISHLIST.

1. New iPhone
2. New bowling ball and shoes (Yes, really)
3. Bucks (Any amount would be a nice blessing!)
4. The ahlian black leather jacket at Bugis street and the light blue shorts from Cotton On
5. Topman shirts in Blue and Green! ( My size`s XS *hinthint*)
6. Forever21 vouchers (I don`t really know what I want yet but I definitely want something from there)
7. A new computer with AMAZING SPECS so I can play Blackshot everyday.

Many more but I can`t think of them right now. Materialistic girl much!

Tomorrow is Valerie`s water baptism! Congratulations Valerie! Enjoy your new lease of life :) I can`t make it cause of ministry, *emo much*

Oh Daddy has taken the camera to Malaysia so there`s no phototaking this weekend >:

And I doubt I am going to Monday`s St. James event. With baby`s birthday so near I ought to be saving up heehee. And I still haven`t gotten a fake ID!

Researching hotels now. Write more later heehee :)

Bowling for soup

2010-11-25T18:17:00.003+08:00

Credits: http://cdn.buzznet.com/media/jjr//2010/03/justin-lucky/justin-bieber-bowling-party-03.jpg

Are you sure that`s the correct way to hold the ball, Justin Bieber? o__o

Well I guess this is growing up.

2010-11-24T17:01:00.002+08:00

Today is a fucking bad day. I think it`s just the gloomy weather that`s getting to me. Have you heard of this song Gloomy March? Well when I first joined Auditionsea they didn`t have many slow bpm songs so this was one of the songs I played as a nub. 92 bpm HAHA. But it`s really calming and ... comforting. Listening to it now! :D

Okay back to today. It`s not really a bad day - it just started on the wrong foot with the damn dream I had last night. Don`t ask me what it was ( nothing dirty) if you know what`s good for you. But seriously, I haven`t experienced something that felt so, amazing in reality for a long time. Part of me wishes I could just sleep forever.

And now I can`t stop thinking about it. I just can`t. It`s killing me.

Oh well I`m not about to go on emo-ey. Shall head out, and get some good ice cream and comfort food to cheer up! :) Hoping to meet my favourite poodle too. ^_^

Listening to Don`t Give Up - Audition

Auditionsea`s old songs are actually so good! Check them out on Youtube:
One Step, 100bpm is seriously nice ttm. Gloomy March, 92bpm

I should really start reading my archives again. And cringe at all the dumb, immature shit I wrote back in 2008 and 2009 LOL.

This is a random post cause I`ve nothing to share and I don`t really feel like updating either!

What you give is always what you get.

2010-11-23T19:58:00.002+08:00

You guys know anyone out there who kind of looks like me? ( Rare to find because I`m so gorgeous, just kidding :D) Well perhaps I could use your pretty girlfriend`s IC abit if she`s above sixteen. I`m planning on attending St. James' Stylish @ Movida next Monday because I really want to contest for Best Dressed Couple with my friend.

Help me out there, if you can? :) I`ll be really grateful.

Okay so I guess Imma continue from my previous post.

You guys are two of the most awesome friends I`ve had. In fact, I think when it comes to friends I`m really really blessed. All the weekly ( or biweekly) outings that we have make such good memories to keep, from the small things like studying together at Dylan`s place or gymming together to the celebration outings for the birthday boy ( because my birthday hasn`t arrived yet HAHA ) and Wildwildwet, which marked the end of our eoys!

You guys are a such fun bunch. One thing I love about guy friends is that they easily embrace each other ( not literally ) when they meet for the first time. They don`t get awkward, LOL. Like when Nat met Joshua and when Dylan, Joshua and Parry got to know Samuel for the first time. They totally act like they`ve known each other for all their lives. Heh

Of course I love my girlfriends too :) otherwise, who would do my shopping with me? LOL.

Camwhore, camwhore~ It`s like my favourite thing to do.

If you guys ever want to sing karaoke I highly recommend Katong Shopping Centre. Dirt cheap, I tell you. 12 bucks an hour for a room that can fit more than ten people. Best of it, it actually has most of the popular songs, varying from your Kpop to your 90s music to your Justin Bieber to your JJLin. And bringing your own snacks and drinks is allowed.

Check it out! :)

Happy birthday Jeremy! Ye you can see my fat and ugly face in the background and I`m hugging a leftover pizza to bring home for Daddy LOL.

It was nearly twelve midnight when I bused home with Dylan. Should`ve taken cab cause we got lost at Bedok and it was a really long trip. But it was kind of nice I guess. I don`t know ...

Saturday: Bbq at ECP was uber fun! But I think I`m tired of blogging again LOL sorry. So i`ll save that for the next entry. Spam you guys somemore camwhore pics.

Desdes,

I just want you to know. You are so special to me. I don`t care whether you`re perfect all I care about is whether you`re willing to try. I love you, and I know you love me too. But you don`t know how much I wish knowing that was enough. I wish I`d always have the ability to feel it too, but sometimes my fears and insecurities just get the better of me. I became selfish and possessive but it`s because I just want to keep you. I just want to be with you all the time. I`m always afraid that you won`t feel the same about me. That`s why I say, it`s just me and my negative feelings. I`m sorry about everything I said that upset you. For better or for worse I`ll always be there for you. I`ll always love you.

I`d rather have tough times with you than perfection with someone else.

2010-11-22T10:20:00.002+08:00

Short post before I head to 313 to meet Nathanael :) My sidebar goes haywire at times so if it happens to have disappeared please scroll all the way down, it`s there -__- Been trying to fix the issue!

Changed my title picture cause I was getting sick of it :)
Shopping + Lunch! (Y) Imma wear my SJI cohort jacket. SJI guys ftw! Especially Des. ;luv.

Tag meh heheheh!

Why you gotta be so mean?

2010-11-21T21:27:00.009+08:00

Okie since you guys have been so faithfully and anonymously tagging me despite my busyness I will not starve you guys of a blogpost! Heheh! But I`m pretty tired ( only slept four hours) so excuse me for the lousy quality of the post LOL.

Please support Taylor Swift`s new album Speak Now alright! Awesome songs include The Story Of Us and Mean! She is totally awesome Idk when I became an advertiser (nobody`s paying me to do this) but it IS AWESOME!

Okay I`ll begin with Wednesday. So long ago, darn. Headed to Marina Barrage for Sunday A Ministry Outing! The place`s awesome if you haven`t been there, the gallery and cafe is first class, the scenary`s real good and it`s perfect for kite flying!

Chio scenery eh? We had a picnic and there was quite a spread! Pigged out with chicken, spring rolls, fruit, bottled drinks, sandwiches, cupcakes, fishballs, spaghetti ( best part of all!) and alot of other food :) Thanks to everyone who took time off to cook/ bake while the rest of us just dabao-ed. Then we held appreciation and the ICs gave out prizes to us for slogging our guts out in the ministry! Heh.

Ignore my buang face but yum? *Chompchomp*! Stuffed my face until I was a pig. Ate like two plates of Heather`s spaghetti because it was so goood! I want to cook spaghetti! It`s really easy - Sam and I made spaghetti for breakfast once :)

They gave me a packet of milk :) Imma growing ministry member heehee! Actually quite happy because it was actually of use ( well, drink? O_O) While some people got weirder stuff like cucumbers and party poppers LOL.

Okay moving on: Thursday morning: Headed to Dhoby Ghaut to meet Theodora for a Blackshot lan session. Every Wednesday is Blackshot day! Ran into Jamie, Joey and Niki at the station they were heading off to watch Harry Potter! Without me!! No lah just kidding they asked me what I couldn`t make it. Not a big fan of Harry anyway until yesterday ( elaborate more on that later )

Blackshot is uberfun! If you haven`t tried you should. It`s a mixture of Auditionsea-like style settings (with maps, rooms and choosing your team) and L4D shooting gameplay. If you`ve known me long enough you would know I LOVE AUDITION AND L4D. I`m at InfinityOnHigh, if you see me play in my team plox and watch me fail LOL.

Nothing much so I`ll skip to Friday. Went bowling with Valerie, Joshua and Dylan! Valerie`s first time hanging out with us and first time bowling in years heh. She wasn`t bad! Lost to Josh by only one point.

I`m so happy cause my bowling`s improved alot! Well I never score below hundred anymore which is a huge accomplishment but cutting the crap, I lost to Dylan by four points. Aw 122. :D But still! Going with pro poodle one morning this week! Can`t wait to show him my skeelz.

HAHA my legs damn sexy right! Kidding. I always look unglam when bowling ): Swinging the ball like Idk how. LOL. When I try to look professional I fail badly. HAHA. And that`s a dumb split in the picture. Too center already!

My favourite thing to do? Camwhore.

Love this pic because the lights are so beautiful! Gay looking hair, aww ): Oh did I mention I retrieved the awesome camera from Daddy? I went overboard and spammed two batteries in two days. LOL. First picture I took: HAHAHA.

Okay I`m seriously getting lazy here LOL. And I still have two more days to cover! A picture speaks a thousand words for thousands more of words please check my facebook albums out. Where else could we go for dinner but our favourite Just Acia? We even have a personal waiter, uh cashier. And not to mention I`M A MEMBER OF EVERYTHING HEEHEE

Well, does that tempt you much? :)

I`m a super nice okay so I`ve decided to do this mini-review of Jus Acia specially for you.

Name of Restaurant: Just Acia
Location: Marina, Dhoby Xpress, Pasir Ris Ehub and Idk where else :)
Type of food: Asian, Japanese/ Korean influenced? Excuse me if I`m wrong I`m not a masterchef heh.
Budget: From 7 dollars to 15 dollars per average person. I emphasise on the word average.
Get: Spicy Chicken Set, Tom Yam Soup, Dory Fish With Melted Cheese, Tori Katsu, Just`s Chicken Wings. (Y)

Sometimes they give you jalapeno peppers. I hate jalapeno peppers. This restaurant is awesome and a way better alternative from fast food. Please try okay! ^_^

I`ll show you the two best pictures of the day:

Dylan closeup and stunned Valerie! HAHAHA. These two shots are priceless I tell you :) I`m an expert photographer! Anyway we bused to Joshua`s place. Camwhored on the bus. Sorry I like all the pictures so much I simply must upload LOL.

Classic Ahlian face. Idc what you guys think. I`m smarter than you! *HAHA IN YOUR FACE*

The guys fell asleep. ( Or attempted to fall asleep.) We waited for Joshua to have a haircut at Tampines mart before heading up to his place to "supposedly sleep" before heading off to KTV in celebration of Jeremy`s birthday. But the sleep became slacking on the bed/ playing computer/ playing bridge instead.

While Josh was having his haircut I played with his specs. LOL. Looks nice on me right? :D See I`m so hot I look naise whether I wear specs or not. LOL. I used to hate wearing specs cause I look epicly gay but ever since I made this pair of two hundred bucks specs I`m like, hey they don`t look that bad after all! Now I`d rather wear them than contacts... sometimes.

Okay this post ends here. Alot more to go but I will continue... soon. Stay tuned! :D

Every hour, of every day.

2010-11-17T21:53:00.004+08:00

Hello!

The other day I was hell bored so I decided to create my own random Facebook like. Wow didn`t expect it to become so darn popular LOL. (Y)

Today`s outing was awesome but I`d prefer to describe it with pictures so I`ll save that post for another day when the Facebook pixs are up :-) That`s the trouble when you don`t have a working camera. MUST remember to get Dad to bring his 12megapix camera back so I can camwhore with Desdes LOL.

Go listen to David Archuleta`s Good Place. I help Parry promote him :) It is awesome okay. These are the words, that say how good it feels to be here with you today~

I learnt a new word today - Effusion

Am a happygurl today cause Edmund told me I could use the hours I served at Ministry for CIP and he would endorse it for me. I`ve been working for 1 year+ SO I NEVER CHEAT OKAY for like 12 hours every month so it`s way over 100 hours hello LEAPS points :)

Slash CIP off the list of December To-Dos so it`s down to studying, fellowship and spending time with Desdes. ^_^

L4D yesterday was screwedup. Died three times because I got strangled by a smoker and nobody came to my rescue. LOL. Parry killed some other player by closing the lift door (In no mercy) when she/he was still outside HAHAHA.

After that we headed to EBD to meet the other peeps. Haven`t seen them for so long :) Anyway Zhenying was awesome! Totally inspired ^_^ Then bused home with Chris, Sabrina and Kefei. My phone died so i just slept on Kefei`s shoulder.

Okay I shall continue this post some other time cause my dad wants to use the comp. :D Need to confirm tomorrow`s outing with chewy theowy also!

At least then I would know.

2010-11-16T12:30:00.003+08:00

You know, I`m in kind of a way-too-early christmas mood. Kept listening to Christmas music and the noise of renovations downstairs are damn annoying need to get out of this house asap. D: Here are three must-have songs you should stock up on your playlist with the coming of Christmas!

1. My Only Wish - Britney Spears ( I think this is like, the best christmas song ever)
2. My Christmas List - Simple Plan
3. Feliz Navidad and All I want for Christmas - Bowling For Soup ( You might as well get their entire Christmas album. I love BFS! )

I love the festive season, and yes presents for everybody! Plus parties and chalets and new clothes ^_^ It`s a pity we won`t be celebrating CNY next year but Dad said (hopefully) we can take a trip to Bintan! Omg yeah! But I`ll still miss the blackjack sessions (Y)

Went out with Des yesterday to watch

If you liked Prince Of Persia I think this movie will interest you. I`m pretty neutral about it, good, but not planetshaking awesome. I swear Adele died at the end but Des disagreed. LOL. Well it`s your take.

We did random shopping and walking around aimlessly while talking HAHA. Des is so cute and adorable ttm HAHAHA *gushgush* ;luv!

Ate subway, played pool ( I haven`t pooled for like, nearly three months. Kind of surprised I`m not as bad as I thought, but still bad. LOL ) and went bowling. Darn the supernice prawn mee at Kovan Superbowl closed down! I hope I managed to locate it soon. LOL.

Today: Woke up early and headed to Macs at School for PW discussion with Amanda and Ashley. I was damn hungry and they hadn`t arrived yet so I thought it`d be okay to go ahead and get pancakes and a milo. Well, some people wouldn`t stop staring at me and giving me the *loser* look. -___- Hello, I know I look like a loser eating alone but staring is ffffing rude please. I hate it when people stare at me when they see me outside. A smile would be nice, otherwise you should just pretend you didn`t see me. Like it`s the greatest sin in the world to be having Macdonalds breakfast alone when you`re waiting for your friends.

Yes I know many people think of me as an anti-social loser. I`m guilty of it, and I don`t really care how you guys judge me, because obviously you don`t know me and you`re wrong.

/end of rant

Eventually they showed up and we went over the work real quick and painlessly. Ovenbreaked on Ashley`s iPhone while they got food, we chatted for about two hours before leaving.

Now heading to the gym before ZY`s house!

When you get home, I hope you`ll see this.

2010-11-14T20:22:00.005+08:00

When you get home, I hope you`ll see this.
Part of me, hopes you still care enough to visit my blog.
Part of me, hopes you haven`t deleted my link off your bookmarked tabs in Google Chrome.

I just wanted to say, sorry for all the shit I`ve done in the past. Sorry from the bottom of my heart. Sorry for all that I put you through and thank you for sticking by me through my selfishness, immaturity, possessiveness, irrationality, and all the thousand other times when I was being a bitch. All the times when I swore I`d change but I never did.

I always knew you were too good for someone like me. I`m not saying this to seem overly nice. I mean it. I`m really not worthy.

Thanks for the great memories we shared. I hope there`ll be more in the future. I hope someday, we`ll be really good friends again. I wish you happiness.

On a brighter note, been basking in holiday joy for the past few days! Enjoyed macs with Mel, Reuben, Louissa, Perry and the other awesome peeps of N399 before heading to Jcube to play L4D yesterday. The campaigns were easy and we didn`t even come close to dying ( Well I got incapacitated twice for startling the witch -__-) but had alot of fun!

L4D, L4D, L4D! I couldn`t stop thinking about it. I even dreamt of the witch last night LOL. It was quite the nightmare. Realised the sun was shining brightly and I was snoring away in bed on a WORKING SUNDAY. Oh shiat. Luckily it was only seven and ministry starts at seven thirty. My damn alarm clock was set at 17:15 HAHAHA FAIL.

Was late, didn`t get scolded phew! I wouldn`t call ministry the life of the party but it was quick and painless, ^_^ Celebrated Daniel`s birthday, dude hope you like the present ( speaking of it dudes, PAY UP! ) and the card. We went to eat at LJS, clam chowder ;luvluv. Then we played monopoly deal, everyone won except me LOL! And maybe Daniel and Dylan, but they didn`t play every single round like I did. Hmm.

Around five plus we bused to Joshua`s place to L4D2, meh as the black Coach guy, Dylan as the pink chiobu, Valerie and Josh as the other two normal guys hehehe not that I`m racist or anything. Anyway, we played normal mode and it was ffffing hard and we all kept dying in the second stage at the cola part. Cause Josh ran in and we were supposed to "protect" him at the entrance but we all got mobbed by zombies and so did he inside. As a result all of us went down and game over, LOL.

Well, a good game! My plans for the rest of the week:

Monday: Hang out with Des!
Tuesday: Probably gym at Samuel`s place, ZY`s discipleship class at night.
Wednesday: Sunday A Ministry Outing ( I`m hosting it with Nathaniel woohoo!)Marina Barage, there`s going to be lots of good food too :) Can`t wait!
Thursday: Celebrating Daniel`s birthday with Josh, Dylan, Nick and all my other brothers! Bowling and Jus Acia dinner! :D
Friday: Dye hair with Jasmine Xing at my place (Tentative), hopefully can fit in an L4D session with Parry!
Saturday: Either visit S1 with Dylan or Jasmine`s BBQ at Pasir Ris!
Sunday: Zone chalet! Yes, another bbq! Maybe staying the night :)

PARTY TIME, HERE I COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Me against the world.

2010-11-13T13:47:00.004+08:00

I need to grow up. Seriously.
And I will. I will learn to get the better of my dumbfucked emotions. Take that, Satan.

Current obsession: L4D! Ahh! Another round at Jcube with Perry tonight :) I hope he brings some nice N399 peeps come too - we could always use more pros to tank a nub like me LOL.

Lan was closed today so couldn`t play Audition ouh damn it. Supposed to head to Bugis but I should prevent myself from spending too much money these days -___- You know it`s impossible to not buy anything from Bugis. LOL.

Expenses tomorrow

Tithe, Cellgroup fund, Bowling, Helix piercing ( should I do it or should I not!?)

Speaking of piercings: NO IT DOES NOT MAKE ME AN AHLIAN.

Nowadays ahlians have better taste in clothes and actually look more high-class than they were before. Well my point is ahlians/bengs now wear Cotton On/ Forever21/ Topshop and God knows what else so please can you stop judging me by the way I look!?

The only way you could identify an ahlian ( for sure) is when she opens her mouth and you hear the loud, disgusting broken chinese/ singlish accents or when you see them smoking and hanging about with skinny pretty boys with long, dyed hair, lots of piercings, skinny jeans and loads of acne.

At least I don`t talk like a chinagirl. At least I d0nt type liike dhiis.

Actually those pretty boys do have good taste in clothes, imo. Well, not the hair, the dulan face or the tattoos. Just the cute shirts and the bermuda shorts/ skinny jeans, (Y). And some of the girls are really professional in their makeup and their bags are so chio - I guess we all have alot to learn from each other.

Damn pretty omg ^__^ Ignore the bad skin, LOL. I got it from Forever 21! ;luv. At a way more affordable price than Attributes/ any Christian store sells it. The best part? Can wear to school, HAHA.

Am currently waiting for Perry to finish cg so we can head to L4D! L4D L4D L4D! Seriously what`s wrong with me I am obsessed with the game HAHAHA. And yes I`ve barely played like five times so I really suck. I don`t know many controls, I keep falling off ledges and incapacitating myself so my teammates have to save me, I keep falling into holes, getting lost, running too slow, being mobbed by zombies, failing to rescue teammates and shooting my teammates. LOL

Anyone up for a game with me?

I know I let you down, but it`s not like that now.

2010-11-10T15:04:00.002+08:00

Blur cauz Daddy forgot to bring home the twelve-megapix camera for me to camwhore. LOL, used the two megapix iphone instead! To begin this post with one word:

FREEDOM!

Yes, Chinese O levels are over :D I`ve to admit it`s the most scary and daunting exam I have ever taken in my whole entire life (Psle wasn`t so bad). Anyway, when the invigilator went "You may begin " my hands were practically shaking so bad I couldn`t write properly heehee! Omg such a wimp. -__-

Yes, I was a nervous wreck, and I shit alot when I get nervous (unfortunately, but true) so went to the toilet at least three times before the first paper LOL. Thanks everyone who encouraged me with their well wishes, Desdes ^_^, Jerry, Gregory, Nathanael, Hannah, Jennie, Zelia, YingHao ( although your message came a bit too late), Tristan, Jasmine Kon, Taitai thanks much heh :)

Paper one was easier than I expected, well I`ve to admit the school isn`t that pathetic at sporting questions since everything they got us to prepare CAME OUT. Perhaps they have insider info Idk heehee but really lucky for the gonghan omg can you imagine anything easier than 乱丢垃圾!? HAHA. Bzbd was a bit tricky- Yes we did do family communication before but trying to relate it to hectic city life is bloody difficult.

Gong han went well except that I made two bloody careless mistakes that are going to affect the biaoda marks! Oh fml but all the points are there and every single chim chengyu I backed up was dumped into it LOL. Best gonghan ever written ( for me ) ^_^

Baozhangbaodao wasn`t as well cause I was rushing for time -__- the jian yi part was really retarded and short and the conclusion was three lines awww, but the front was quite solid! Didn`t spot any cuozi yet cause I didn`t get to check thoroughly hmm.

Was pretty confident but paper 2 spoiled everything!! Big mistake to start with the MCQ comprehension it was so tough and tricky ;eeeks;eeeks and I struggled badly with open-ended. Well totally boomed one 2mark definition question cause I didn`t have the slightest idea what the shit they talking. And one free response question by writing barely three lines. THREE LINES. ffff. Think I will do badly for that part, like 24/40? ):

Well, 8/10 for the cloze passage and 18/20 for Compre mcq (Mummy checked for me) so I guess that`s some consolation hmmm. Well, if all goes well and I wasn`t too off in my estimation I should be somewhere between a borderline A1 and a borderline A2. That`s only IF.

Hopes everyone I hate screws the paper up and pulls the damn bell curve down heehee * evil* O level is sadistic - why can it be a *win-win* thing? Why limit the number of people getting A1?

May or may not be bowling tonight. Spam you guys moar pic :)

Can`t wait for my hair to grow longer :) I regret cutting it cause it takes so long to grow back ):

IT IS NOW TIME TO RELAX! :)

Two more days of school. Then it`s all over :) Not intending to worry about Chinese until next year.

Insecurity.

2010-11-09T17:18:00.002+08:00

I`m just afraid. What happens if I`m wrong? What happens if I made a big mistake?

The riches of Your love, will always be enough.

2010-11-07T13:28:00.005+08:00

I wonder why I`m always posting when I`m supposed to be MIA. Well it`s the weekend so you got to cut me some slack. I`ve been mugging chinese for more than 2 weeks straight and it`s killing me much! Am still worried like ffff.

Waiting for mummy to come home with lunch. Studied some compo in the morning, going to finish my papers this afternoon ( I hope) I miss service and ministry and every other aspect of my social life I`m currently deprived of. I feel distant from God and all I want to do is go back and beg for forgiveness.

I keep wishing one day I wake up and you just won`t be there anymore. I know I`m selfish but I just want you out of my life.

808 bump makes yo put your hands up

2010-11-06T16:42:00.003+08:00

Who`s yours?

I was reading blogs like Xiaxue`s and wondering how they actually get so popular. While she may not be the most beautiful, attractive person ever there`s just this thing about her blog that makes you go, * respect *. People who are brutal and straightforward, when they don`t like you, they cut you down where it hurts.

I am having a rotten day. Well make that a very rotten weekend cause every since my phone went down the toilet misfortunes have been striking me one after another. Hell I know I shouldn`t believe in luck but perhaps I am really cursed or someone has been sticking pins into my voodoo doll tsk.

You know what I am so sick of? Having to restrain myself. Having to hold back my vulgarities just to be the good girl. When I feel like I might just throw my drink at someone`s lj face I keep all these comments to myself and act like a peacemaking person. Now I can`t even type what I wish because people are just going to read this and judge me.

It just gets to me, how you won`t stop picking on me and everything I do. Well, I`m sick of having it your way. I want to have it anyway I want it.

Like a G6.

2010-11-04T21:37:00.003+08:00

They`ll see in time, I know.
We`ll show them, together. ♥

Totally motivated by this quote I saw while tumblr-ing!

"I could conquer the world with one hand, as long as you`re holding the other."

Cause you`ll be in my heart. Yes, you`ll be in my heart, from this day on, now and forevermore. No matter what they say, you`ll be here in my heart, always.

Six days left. A lot has yet to be accomplished, but I will work uberhard, knowing you`re fighting alongside with me! :)

Love you much Des! (Y)

Forever was just a word, till you came and gave it meaning.

2010-11-01T18:23:00.002+08:00

MIA
10th November, I`ll be back.

Trick or treat, smell my feet.

2010-10-31T19:18:00.002+08:00

Happy halloween hunny. No trick or treating for me this year ( or next year ) cause I`ve got to be at mugging while everyone is dolled up in their pretty ( or hideous ) horror costumes and partying. But i`m a good gurl so I shall not complain! :)

I`ve always wanted to dress up as a vampire. Not like Edward Cullen, but I guess I was just so awed by the eye colours in Eclipse and their flawless white skin (Y). Pretty awesome ain`t it? Of course I didn`t really dye my cotton on shirt blood red though.

I`m such a slacka I should be feeling guilty. Haven`t really studied much chinese today "-.- Only completed a paper and did 4 zhonghetiankongs. Well, I`m happy that I seem to be improving ( or is it just my imagination -_-) with 8/10 and 10/10 for some of `em heehee.

Heading over to Dylan`s to get my chemistry stuff back. Real lazy, but my chem teacher`s a tyrant I swear. D:<>

I just want a bloody A1. Can`t I have A1, please? ): I don`t feel very confident with the pathetic standard of my chinese (51/100) but really, that`s all I`m asking. A1A1A1A1A1A1A1A1A1 ;luvluv.

Am going to work hard at school all week. Am not going to fall asleep.

As I lay dying.

2010-10-28T21:33:00.001+08:00

Just forget the world.

I wish our hearts could come together as one.

2010-10-27T18:08:00.002+08:00

It`s been three days of this hell week and I think I deserve a pat on the back. Struggling with ending school at six nearly everyday and training for Sunday`s GE run and all my homework and the upcoming Chinese O levels. I`m surviving, so far. And thanks Razak for being kind enough to let us off early today. I really appreciate it dude.

Okay I guess Imma stay in elective art. Not that Razak is thrilled to have me or anything but I guess I just feel ... grateful. If he hadn`t overlooked my late submission and lazy attitude and still gave me a mark - a good mark I`d have an L1R5 of 20 instead of the current 14.

I guess the part of me that wanted to stay started shouting louder than the part that didn`t.

And Chinese O levels - I want an A1 so, so bad. I know I may not have what it takes but it doesn`t stop me from insisting on it anyway. I think I want A1 so bad that I`m going to cry if I get A2. If I get A2 I might just drop Higher Chinese and redo my chinese next year. It just ain`t enough.

I know I`m being really unfair, but I`m beyond caring.

Rest > Gym > Study Chinese.

The best love one could get.

2010-10-24T21:33:00.004+08:00

You guys are seriously amazing. No, not just the people in the picture but all of you. E402, E491, E426, N399, S28 and every single one of you guys I`ve met in this awesome place. Reminiscing, it`s been a year, a month and eleven days since I met you guys. People came and went, there were new faces - but the spirit stays the same :)

Tomorrow is the first paper for GCE O levels in Singapore! I know of a few friends who are probably too nervous to sleep/ panicking / in state of anxiety. All I can say is, give it your best shot peeps! You know you`ve got what it takes :) Whatever the result, I`m proud of you guys having come this far!

All the best and God bless to HannahSabrinaKefeiWenTingCelineYingHaoGregoryNathanaelRachelChanBryanShawnEmilyTristan and all my other sec 4 seniors la dey. Sorry I can`t list everyone cause just too many,

and Des, I love you k! ;)

Today: Great morning at Church, went for lunch at Marina after that. I am so hooked on Monopoly Deal hahahaha although I don`t always win but I love lashing out viciously at others and stealing their property HAHAHA imma a saddist and a ferocious player!

Bowling was fun, and I haven`t seen the e491 peeps in such a long time. It seems so long ago that we were one cell, with Brendan, Qianyu, Theo and all in our cgms! D: Kenderick is really good, and pwned us all heh :P

I love taitai, (Y).

She`s awesome :)
Okay I guess this post ends here.

There`s not a thing that I would change.

2010-10-24T07:54:00.004+08:00

Well I guess I`m done trying. For now.

I was thinking of getting a tumblr but I think that would inspire me to write more philosophical bullshit. No offence but I think people do get tired of reading about how much your heart hurts over a hundred times in different vague ways. I really like tumblr surfing and all, but I guess I don`t want to become a person like that. Not after I`ve sworn to change, forgive and forget all the negativity in the past. It`s all gone now.

I don`t see the need for a tumblr to bring back more emotional baggage. You guys may not agree with me, but to a certain extent Tumblr does sour your relationships and so does the media.

Well think of all the romantic songs and movies that give you the *damn the grass is much greener on the other side* and *everyone gets a happy ending so why don`t I* and the heartbreaking songs that aggravate the smallest of your problems * small argument - Listens to song/ movie *God that`s exactly how I feel, the guy`s such a dick, Imma kill him*

All of this virtual reality stuff that is too good to be true/ too awful to be true we start imposing them onto our own lives that`s why so many people are always heartbroken and emotional - when the situation actually isn`t as awful / as perfect. If that`s the sort of expectations people are going to carry, no wonder relationships malfunction.

I guess I`m being philosophical here again despite the promise not to. Heh this is my own theory okay. If you don`t agree that`s cool but don`t flame me.

I`ve had a fairy good weekend but my phone pictures are not uploading imma rage LOL. Getting a new china charger from City Plaza soon so my usb will stop being a bitch. Meanwhile I`ll just rip from facebook :)

Friday Night: Went ehub with Joshy, Taitai and Victor. Rather impromptu decision but I was looking for something to do and these awesome people made themselves available :) Seriously feels weird with no cg. We bought cup walker and played monopoly deal at Orchid bowl while waiting for lanes. Anyway Nebo card membership rocks ttm - three bucks a game at peak hours tsktsk :) Well in general I don`t like ehub as much as I like kallang. I don`t fare as well there as I do in superbowl either - but my dad thinks that superbowl kind of sucks.

Pretty failed first game cause no matter how I manipulated the ball I couldn`t get it to roll down the second dot to the left pocket. This frustrates me so much everytime I`m training and I`m beginning to think it isn`t my thing at all LOL. Fives frames of nearly full gutters - I was lagging behind everyone else with a score of two omg HAHAHA. Gave up and bowled straight, managed to catch up yay :)

Second game with a score of 104. Not really that happy with it cause I`ve gotten 115 and I really want 120, but at the rate all my last few bowling sessions are going this isn`t so bad after all :)

Haha I`d like to post more but I`m heading to church now :-)

2010-10-21T17:28:00.002+08:00

Boy today was such a depressing day. I think I`d have a better time falling asleep in debates in school than actually being bored to tears at home. I feel so unmotivated I can`t seem to get any work done. I swear I will buck up tonight, after dinner.

To-do list

Make birthday cards
Complete Chinese Paper 2 ( Yes yes yes )

God, provide me with energy to keep going. I am exhausted.

Idk what to type, really.

Cause you`re amazing, just the way you are.

2010-10-20T22:51:00.003+08:00

I love ripping Jen`s tumblr heehee ain`t this cardigan so (Y)? I`m into floral and lace and denim and leather and pearls and mono-colour clothes and high waisted shorts and skinny jeans.

*yawnyawnyawn* School totally was .. uneventful. Chemistry: Mr. Yeo left halfway so we all slept through the rest of the period, English: Teacher didn`t come so slept somemore, texted, ate cookies in class LOL, Chinese was kind of pointless but I do need ALL the chinese help I can get. Maybe I should start typing my posts in chinese now. Okay 到了assembly（what`s that in chinese!? zhou hui!?) 我们参与了一位事业有成的总裁讲座，我们在 auditorium 里睡觉到休息时间。HAHA now you know how bad I am =_=

No pictures cause my phone simply cannot be revived. Ew help. And I need to cut my nailsss or sooner or later I`ll go blind taking my contacts out! Imma go get the nail cutter now :) Shall spam you all tumblr picts from Jennie heheh.

It`s your loss cause you made the choice, to walk out.

2010-10-19T18:13:00.005+08:00

Dear teachers, I`m sorry I`m always such a disappointment. Sorry that the people I`ve disappointed are those who cared and believed in me the most. Sorry God, for always letting You down, never using the gifts and intelligence you blessed me well.

You know, I really didn`t deserve this. I deserved to fail elective geography. But His grace is so amazing that I still managed to get 30/50. I totally crapped out my hard engineering techniques with rubbish like "making coral reefs" and I yet got 8/8 for it. I completely didn`t touch so many questions worth about 18 marks in total but God used the rest of my answers in such a way that I got practically full marks for everything I attempted.

I`m so amazed.

I passed everything that I deserved to fail. Face it, I barely studied a few hours before the day of the paper. I even studied in the mornings of the paper. I told myself I`d take a powernap and mug throughout the night but temptation set in and I slept throughout.

I will work harder, I swear. I will prove this by starting my Chinese O's revision TODAY. I have 22 more days to go. I will make sure I score that damn A1 even if it kills me. So far I am doing terribly in my higher chinese. In fact I got 51/100 in HCL. But if God is on my side, what can be against me?

Literature was okay - but I still feel not up to standard yet. I really need to read the book more, and memorise more seductive quotes heehee. Seriously dk how the hell people get A1 for lit. And I definitely need to work on English comprehension. 16/25 is noway x100. And why am I so bad at summary - my hcl summary only 8/20 LOL. Well my epicly corny English essay on regaining lost faith scored a 22/30 heh not so bad!!

I swear I will never write yi lun wen again - First time chinese compo 33/70 - in an exam somemore! Wasted like 20 marks if not I wouldn`t be passing by 1 mark D: *rage*

In general I`m pretty happy. You can`t ask for too much if you didn`t study. (:

Sorry no pictures today because my phone went ugh and the usb wouldn`t charge! Yesterday, went to have a facial omg it was totally awesome. Well they make you strip and put on this weird rob ( I guess so they can clean your neck and shoulders? O_O) But the feeling was real shiok heehee and the products smelled good ^_^ And I hope my awful skin condition has improved.

Going to wax my legs next week. I can`t wait! :D

Shouldn`t be asking myself why.

2010-10-17T21:27:00.003+08:00

I seriously feel damn shagged now. I think I`d just drop dead if I happen to lie on the bed. Well not a surprise - barely slept a total of ten + hours over the weekend. To sum it up, things have been good, but... not so good. I guess school is really dampening my mood - back to reality: The fact that the post-EOY adrenaline cannot continue until I ace my chinese O levels.

God I pray, grant me the patience.

Hahaha check this out! My blog views have suddenly skyrocketed. LOL Well, that`s what I thought before I checked the sources - apparently someone`s itouch viewed me through facebook 11 times.

HAHA DESMOND KAY VIEWED MY BLOG ELEVEN TIMES THROUGHOUT THE DAY.

Today was really awesome. Happy to be back in ministry, anyway happy birthday Nathaniel and goodluck for your chinese o levels too :) Found out about our end-of-year appreciation gathering and WE`RE GOING TO HAVE A PROM THEMED ONE OMG HEHEH. With formal attire and everything! Can`t wait!

Service was great as usual but I was struggling to keep awake with my shagged-ness. Seriously. Even standing up was difficult. My feet ached like shit cause previously the ministry briefing lasted at least thirty minutes! Well kind of a disappointment that we didn`t get to see E,P,L cause cineleisure was sold out and GV was only left with front rows and Shaw House`s timing of 4p.m was too late. So Joshua, Jasmine, Victor, Daniel and I headed to Macs to chompchomp and we played monopoly deal!

Okay I admit I wasn`t obsessed with the game at least ( OKAY FINE BECAUSE I LOST THE OTHER TIME!) But it`s actually real fun although I didn`t win! :D After the first round I actually did win - In fact I won the second and last round while Jasmine won the first and third. HAHA WE PWNED THE GUYS.

Went shopping at Bugis, got some presents and stuff. God I have totally no financial control the moment I step into Bugis street market. Before you know it all the money`s gone OMG. I had fifty plus when i first left the house and now I have TEN DOLLARS SHUCKS. How to last through the week!

Well I checked out the timetable and it`s not that bad after all. But I am so ponning tomorrow`s prefects investiture. No offence prefects I love you guys and all I don`t mind going but I do really have something more awesome on :) Yeah like a vanity makeup and facial appointment LOLOL. I`ll save the MC for the longest day of this week!

Well at least the dismissal times are pretty reasonable for this week. ( Except cca on tuesday and saturday and SCMUN thursday D:) Fine I don`t mind the ICT so much because I do really need the extra help in chinese. My papers are coming back soon, please let me get A (Y).

Okay bye. :D

If you wanted honesty that`s all you had to say.

2010-10-16T12:57:00.003+08:00

Gosh you guys don`t know how much picture uploading drives me crazy! Each picture from my phone is like, 1mb ( 8 megapix tsk tsk) and extremely huge. It takes so much work to resize and compress and all the editing software hangs up on me that I decided to go back to the old-fashioned method. I print-screened them and used paint to resize. Genius right? HAHA. It took like twenty minutes, not bad.

Yesterday afternoon, went to meet friend @ somerset after school. We went to cineleisure to have BK and shop :) Was trying desperately to locate Topshop and Topman but gosh I`m such a town geek I don`t even know how to walk from 313 to Ion +_+ In the end took MRT. We found topshop, got the shirt, SO HAPPY OMG. (Y) And it wasn`t way out of budget or anything - well that`s one birthday present settled!

The birthday IC is a great job most of the time but not when 4 birthdays are coming up in the same week! Not that I`m complaining, I LOVE TO SHOP and I have like, the cheapest stuff ever in my closet LOL - that looks awesome too heheh. But buying presents is just... subjective. How am I gonna know if the person hates it!

I bought this purple topman shirt ( pictures later ) AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH LOL. I think I`m overreacting. Parry keeps telling me I`m kidding and the shirt looks hideous on me but I`m beyond caring HAHA. I love Topshop and Forever21! They`re like a classier version of Cotton on. Well, I don`t really buy cotton on stuff cause the cutting is big, it looks damn nice but on me it`s just UGHH LOL.

Anyway here`s the shirt. It was so nice, I simply couldn`t not wear it out that same night. HAHA. Made a futile trip to bugis in search for my wallet cause the old one looks like it`s gonna break to bits anytime soon ( actually it already did). My wallet`s too fat ( not with money, but with rubbish). Didn`t buy anything, I had six bucks left.

CAMWHORED IN IT (Y). Wore my white skinny jeans until they turned black. eeek.

If anyone knows why I`m so obsessed with this shirt, please don`t give my dirty lil secret away okay! :) Cell was awesome - Alot of fun with the usual peeps and great pizza too! Had a slice of cheese sausage and another with pineapple (Y) I miss calling pizza delivery. Then we all played monopoly deal, but I just watched and helped Valerie :)

Basking in the post EOY joy :) I will update more often I promise! It`s just that the pictures take damn long and get on my nerves. :@ Heading out to bowl soon! Hope I score a 150, wheee :)

A year has passed, the seasons go.

2010-10-15T11:40:00.002+08:00

Boo got three papers back, quite screwed! A1 for chemistry ^_^ heehee but I didn`t do as well as I wanted to! PASSED A.MATH with 50, yet still disappointed cause I expected to do better. Yeah I know I`m ambitious to hope for at least a C5 when I`m failing math pretty badly all along! SS was 31, many had borderline passes such as 25,26,27 etc so I guess I should be happy but I expected wayyyy better ): This isn`t enough to pull up my elective geography which paper I didn`t even complete half of, LOL.

Currently in school. In the comp lab, I think I`ve become pretty much an antisocial, non-recess person LOL, with all my friends. We`d rather game/ facebook than actually eat. Best thing about the lab? There`s air con, and YOU CAN *ahem* ALL YOU WANT. NOBODY SEES HEHEH.

I feel so happy. ^_^ Boy Idk if it`s wrong to feel happy but I really am. And I feel so blessed. Thank you God. I know the near future`s going to be way brighter, and that God has made a way.

I feel so genuinely happy. Happy like I haven`t been in a long time.

I don`t let nobody see me wishing he was mine.

2010-10-13T19:21:00.002+08:00

But I`m sure as hell, you do.

I am so addicted to Taylor Swift`s I`d Lie. I`m not the romantic-shit kind of person but Taylor Swift`s songs are really catchy (Y) Thumbs up !!

Boy, I am so happy to be back in ministry on Sunday. Even if that means waking up at 5.30a.m voluntarily on a SUNDAY morning. I think of all the friends, Edmund`s team, WaiYin, Sean, Judy, Belle, Nicholas, Peter, Nathaniel, Weixian, Dora and everyone else and I do miss them so much! :) So awesome to be back serving the Almighty.

One thing I can say about life is - It goes on. Shit or no shit, it will all pass. I guess everything happens for a reason, so I`m not going to take it too badly when things don`t go my way. I should learn to loosen up, really. I know this is a joke because compared to many of my friends my frequent truancy and my lifestyle in general is already way too relaxed. I guess that`s how I operate. :)

EOY results back tomorrow. All I can say is, I didn`t put in enough effort and I don`t expect to do well and I will accept it when I don`t. All I ask is to pass enough subjects to promote. I`ll work hard next year I swear, And I should start working on Chinese O levels by now. ^_^

I`m itching to go shopping. I want new dresses :))))) Perhaps a bag, more shoes, a wallet definitely, ( because mine is pathetically broken and falls apart every time i open it)

Life`s good.

If you ask me if I loved him, I`d lie.

2010-10-12T13:47:00.003+08:00

I don`t know why procrastination is my best friend. I`m supposed to be doing my art, but I haven`t blogged for days/weeks! ):

Happy Hour @ Mindcafe yesterday was great. Thanks to all my awesome friends who came and made the event possible :) And we had lots of noisy, violent fun though I kept losing! In fact, I only won once but lost three times, LOL. :P Finally Joey and I decided to alliance with each other and try and cheat so we could both have the cards we wanted. LOL. I think it worked pretty well :)

Boy, I am so happy that EOYS are over. But I`m not gonna burn my books and slack off. O levels in about two months, I am determined to pass chinese. No, not pass, but get A1! I`m not too ambitious, am I? ): I used to top chinese and higher chinese back in primary school. LOL. But that was four years ago, when I topped practically every single subject.

Picnik is seriously awesome. It puts other photo editing software to shame! When Daddy gets home imma ask him to let me get premium with his credit card.. hopefully :)

Just wanted to say, thank you awesome people. For making my school days memorable. We go through everything together. You guys never try to judge me or put me down. I`m not one of the popular girls in school, and in fact I`m really anti social :D But I`m really glad for this great group of friends to fall back on. We mug hard, play hard and get horny together!

Thank you. ♥

Because you`re beautiful just the way you are.

2010-10-11T22:33:00.003+08:00

Had a wonderful day with bench peeps! Shall update tomorrow cause it`s getting late. :) Hooray for marking day! Watch this space.

You`re the common denominator

2010-10-06T21:49:00.003+08:00

Took pity on the rate my poor blog is dying with barely twenty visitors a day so I shall sneak in a post while I can. Yes, I`m in the middle of EOYS with four more blardy papers to go, which are also the tough ones that I`m gonna screwed. So far I have screwed elect geog ( for sure) and emath paper 1 though paper 2 is probably going to alleviate it. Everything else, so far, hasn`t been a bed of roses but pretty optimistic of getting at least a B so far.

It`s As I want. ): L1R5, Eight points tsktsk.

I`ve spent the afternoon at the library with Joshy and Dylan examining trigonometry and I`m beginning to find it really awesome. Never understood a shit that Ms. Tan harped on for like, a month in class, but now it seems to all piece together.

Amath is a major killer for me since I have clocked in a F9 the first term. I`ve always been cautious of my performance in it since then. I do not want to fail the EOYS but it seems to run in my family. Even my sister, the straight A, seven A1s overachiever couldn`t make it for amath.

Literature today was pretty screwed up. Anyway, typing 5 essays ( three, but two with subparts) in 2hours and 15minutes is insanity. My wrist feels terribly broken and there`s this unpleasant ache when I twist it ): Hopefully, it escalates into arm strength and improves my bowling heehee :)

I think I freaking need to write (and think) faster because I barely finished SS, Emath, Chemistry and Lit on the dot with some questions left unanswered. As for elect geog, left nearly half the paper blank, good game I know! English and Chinese paper1 were okay as I had ample time left over.

Looking foward as hell to post EOYS, planned a sleepover, blackjack session the moment the last paper is over. Going gym and bake with Samuel too (Y), and catch Eat Pray Love with Nathanael :) I don`t care what other people say that it`s a narcissistic feminist movie it couldn`t hurt to watch right? And I really want to bowl, bowl and bowl. And buy that dumb bowling ball. (Y)

Haha this is a wordy post.

I am so sick of baking life. I swear I`d quit if I wasn`t already level 53. Because the application lags and hangs at least 4 TIMES everytime I use it, and I have to wait and wait and wait. Ultimate waste of time! it`s not even fun. ):

Obsessed with Muse`s Plug In Baby. Idk why but suddenly nowadays I feel nostalgic for my friendship with Nathanael. We used to have so much fun together! We used to text everyday. He`s really busy with Os but I hope I`ll still see him around... ):

Okay. Bye.

I could really use a wish right now.

2010-10-01T22:55:00.003+08:00

I think it would be so nice to mean something to somebody.

My dirty little secret.

2010-09-25T12:05:00.005+08:00

My tongue is tied to a dream. A dream of being with you.

Procrastination tsktsk I`m ready to kill myself 6 more days to EOYS and this is all I have revised:

Six chapters of SS content ( Not counting skills though)
20 pages of a 200+ page biology textbook
English situational writing format ( We did that in class :D)
Two chapters of Elective Geography
One chapter of Chemistry and some mole calculation
Emath topics up to Coordinate Geometry

Amath? Chineese? Literature? Seriously FML.
I don`t think I`m gonna make it.

But seriously. What else is new? I didn`t even remember studying history last year ( which is probably why I`m not taking history anymore) and the three Sciences was solo on the monday after a week of papers. I barely touched it. Anyway squeaked passed with a C5 in the history paper and for biology I failed with a 45/100 and physics with a 50/100 with Chemistry to the rescue with 90/100 heehee.

The point is, I try to work so hard yet it backfires everytime. Life is just too good. Screw!

I really hate selfish, immature and unaccommodating attitudes. People like me. People who just go " I don`t care I want it this way so be it". Yes I can be such a spoiled brat. I just dislike things not going the way I want it. And I get upset when they don`t. The hard truth is life just ain`t the way you want it.

I`ve got to change.

Oh the joy of slacking. :P Okay after taking a shower I`m back to my books. :) Hope to play some pool later! Latest bowling accomplishment: Score of 115. Actually bowling ain`t that easy - it`s more consistency scoring than scoring your best. That way, people can`t tyco too much. For e.g, if you bowl a strike and gutter the next, the strike is pretty much wasted. So when I used to be getting scores like X -- X -- I never got beyond the sixty-seventy range.

So far I have an eighty-plus average I think. Well, not the first set. I only scored bloody 70. Followed by 115 and 88 and 89 prolly cause I just goofed up somewhere in between. Well you gotta be great throughout the game or its wasted.

I want to bowl some more!

Nothing`s changed.

2010-09-21T18:59:00.002+08:00

Someday, I`ll be confident, intimidating, strong, beautiful and invincible.

I want to get out of this rut I`m in.

This life is like a game sometimes.

2010-09-20T17:23:00.006+08:00

Sometimes I feel like I`m made of plastic. Emotion is my weakness. I try a little too hard to be beautiful, while in reality I`m not.

This weekend was really awesome, minus the fact I didn`t get any studying done. But you know me - I have my ways I`ll squeak by somehow :) Wildwildwet was really fun, and I signed up as a Nebo member! I didn`t intend to but face it, a card for amusement parks, karaoke, bowling and food, glorious food was invented for people like me to succumb to temptation. ;) I`m at ehub practically every week anyway!

First time got to ride the top slide ( yeah, the family thingy where everyone sits in a float together) and it was a hell lot of fun! We tried to spot the camera and lay down flat in the huge float cause there was only three of us. The pictures turned out, disgusting. HAHA.

The tsunami was epik fun, can`t believe we waited like thirty minutes on a float in the hot sun at the 1.8m part. I mean, we were practically touching the danger border and I can`t swim, awesome. :D Joshua can`t swim

either and I wouldn`t exactly count on Dylan to come to our rescue LOL.

OH YEAH AND I SAW A NAKED WOMAN IN THE TOILET. Completely naked HAHA. Not that I`m conservative but maybe you wouldn`t like to end up on stomp in a picture glorifying your genitals tsktsk. Dylan and Joshua wouldn`t shut up about this guy they saw in the toilet and how small his dick was. LOL. So evil!

Typical dinner at Jus Acia`s as usual. We`re starting to make friends with the white haired guy who works there. :D Tried in vain to stalk him on Facebook at Joshua`s house LOL. Had tomyam soup which was awesome and burnt my throat bad. :P

Went to meet Brendan after dinner, trained all the way from Pasir Ris to Vivocity. Real tired as swimming does take its toll on you! Slept my way there in the reserved seat, HAHA. I love the reserved seat cause you can lean on the glass. :) Well the long trip turned out to be worthwhile cause he got me tickets into Universal Studios *thanks once again Bren! :D* to watch fireworks. We strolled down fake streets that looked like NewYork and Las Vegas, went to this burger place which was so retro. I haven`t seen those chunky stuff that plays music CDs when you insert counts since I was six!?

Ouh one burger cost like nine bucks eekeek. I had onion rings and a large coke cause I ate dinner with the other guys. It came up to over six bucks. Ripoff! Brendan tells me it costs up to 8k per person to go to Las Vegas. He`s been to practically every state in America!

I`ve never been poor, but compared to Brendan, my family is like, destitute. :D

The pretty fireworks. Totally awesome! Looks really ruined on my phone though. ): Sorry I forgot to edit the picture. I know I look a bit less presentable than usual. Can`t help it. :P

Sunday: Woke up early for Church despite sleeping at like one. It`s funny how when I`m out partying I don`t feel the exhaustion at all, yet at school an hour is all it takes to put me to sleep.

Dylan overslept (as usual heehee) so I went on my own. Met Rachel Chan at Serangoon and wished her happy birthday! Also saw Nicole at the train station ;)

Fellowship @ehub (omg, again!?) YES WE WENT TO JUS ACIA. HAHA. This time the guy remembered us. Celebrated Rena`s birthday. We all stood up and clapped loudly and the whole restaurant turned and looked at us. Embarrassing much!

Had creamy chicken spaghetti this time. ^_^ Took pictures.

I believe in miracles. There is power in believing. I`ve seen so many lives transformed simply because of the people that wouldn`t stop believing in them. :) God`s mercies are new each day!

Headed for Joshy`s house after lunch. We wanted to bowl but there was a crowd and no socks as usual ): instead rode the motion simulator at ehub! It was kind of fun, not really scary but nauseating. With someone beside me going " my balls hurt tsktsk" and nearly throwing up my lunch.

Watched movie and played hotel 626! We stayed at Joshua`s till 8p.m? I found out that Dylan is actually scared HAHAHAHA. We completed the whole mission ;)

Okay I must really study now.

They could give me a million dollars and I`d choose you instead.

2010-09-18T11:20:00.003+08:00

"Destiny is for losers. It`s just an excuse to wait for things to happen instead of making them happen." Blair Waldorf

I love this pic cause it`s so incredibly scary. HAHA. I am still freaking addicted to the song What You Mean To Me it`s so nice! Wonder if I`ll ever find anyone who can be described like that.

I have been anticipating today. Like, our usual outing to Downtown East, but Wildwildwet this time! Actually things ain`t that good cause a miscalculation of money left me with twelve dollars damn it -.- How could I possibly have spent so much in cell!?

Am going to have to borrow from Dylan. LOL.

Yesterday was fun, minus the part where I did not study. Man I`m in such a dilemma right now. Should I just automatically fail my art EOY? I see no point in doing the shit cause I`m dropping anyway. That`s what my sister says. But my percentage`ll be pulled down like, by a 0/55 score. Who really cares about percentage in Secondary 3? :D

Cell was great. I feel burdened though. I don`t want to voice it out because you`ll just think I`m being sensitive or overreacting. Perhaps I am. It`s funny how when you need certain people to empathize so badly, they are never there. I`ve learnt one thing, at the end of day, you have yourself to count on - nobody else.

Wondering how I can be a better Christian - and a better person. I seem to be failing in every aspect. ):

Had a great time, dug into the food, there was ice cream and mooncake and oreos I bought and even carrot cake. :D Then we all cramped in the backset to Taitai`s car to go to Kefei`s grandma`s wake. Met E491 there, I haven`t seen YouJun for the longest time since we last headed to Kendrick`s birthday party! Sat at the table and chatted with him and Dylan while they ate peanuts and drank lots of tea. Eventually everyone left for home at like, midnight but I stayed behind to wait for Leon to pick me up so we could go bowling together!

Had a good heart to heart talk with Kefei while waiting. ^_^ Then we walked to find Leon`s car which was like, 10miles away HAHA cause he got lost in the Hougang estate. Okay I`m exaggerating! Bowling was fun, although I suck ( what else is new tsktsk!) but I am determined to improve OKAY. Just because I gave up on art doesn`t mean I`m a quitter! It was 2a.m. when we headed back.

Shall go out and buy lunch now :) I hope the weather stays good for the afternoon`s waterpark! And dinner with Bren at night!

Wrath.

2010-09-15T22:20:00.002+08:00

I`m here, simply because I don`t feel like giving a shit about EOYs anymore.

Life is just so freaking unfair. You only get B for a test you worked hard enough to deserve an A for. You spend an afternoon comforting a friend in desperate need of company and suddenly they can`t even spare you one second of their time when you`re in agony. So often you put in your utmost effort and slog your guts out, in the end only to receive nothing.

I don`t really want to see my blog die. Spent today so unconstructive watching dumb movies during art, getting a major ego deflation from Razak and spent an extra hour there arguing my way out of redoing my final project. Then went back to Sengkang, ran into James and had a great meal at Subway together. Facebooked all the way and now it`s nearly bedtime tsktsk.

I deserved to do better on the damn chemistry test. Instead I didn`t even get a thirty over thirty-five. I was so confident. And my weakness A.math - I mugged the whole weekend for it. And I still failed I probably can`t do it to save my life. I feel demotivated. I feel lousy.

I feel like giving up.

I miss my Dylan so much too. ):

Oh yeah, and keep reading and tagging my blog plox I would greatly appreciate it. ^_^

I`m leaving.

2010-09-12T19:18:00.003+08:00

Not for good, I`m just going to stop posting for a lil while. For EOYs, the obvious reason. I`ll be back real soon :) Don`t stop reading heehee. Imma go study real hard now that the holiday`s over. ):

Take care everybody!

Fuzzy blue lights.

2010-09-12T07:13:00.003+08:00

Morning peepuir! Am currently waiting for Dylan to wake up from his oversleeping LOL. I hope I won`t have to go up banging on the door HAHA. Since there`s still 2+ hours more to service. Shall forgive him since I overslept the other time HAHA. He was waiting for me at Mac`s and I just got out of bed.

Oh boy, school starts tomorrow. Imma be a mega-mugger starting then. I`m devoting all my free time to biology chapters and math problems. =__= Sad life for me till November if not how am I going to ace my O level chinese otherwise? A1 ^_^ I want to get like, 8 A1s, well A-math is a lil hopeless at the rate I`m failing so I`ll just give allowance for me to screw 2 of my 10 subjects LOL.

Who needs so many anyway? All you need is six. The point is just to get to Junior College. I don`t want to seem conceited but I think getting into JC is a sure thing. :D Like hasn`t my school always had like 98% JC admission rates? I can`t be so suay right. HAHA.

I wanna look good HAHA.

Well the truth is I`m not doing as well as I`m supposed to. Not even half as well. You can blame it on my idleness, my complacency, or rather, I`m just plainly not as smart as I thought. Like, how can someone who scored 268 for PSLE be getting F9s for A.math and borderline passing higher chinese and screwing up simple biology?

I feel stupid heehee. But one thing`s for sure I`d rather have a life than get straight As in the book. Well. Thomas Edison was kicked out of school too right? :D My parents' classic response to that would be, tell me that only when you invent the lightbulb.

Okay Imma leave now or we`re really going to be late LOL.

That`s what I go to school for.

2010-09-11T13:40:00.002+08:00

School is starting soon. Ain`t you guys so excited? Sense the sarcasm.

Seriously Picnik is picture-perfect! The epitome of picture-editing software. It`s the first I might actually consider paying premium for, because it is that good. It`s also cute and user friendly heehee. Good old photobucket is history.

I mean, check out the colours. They even do teeth-whitening ( not that I need it HAHA), eye colour changes, hair colour changes, wrinkles removal, help you lose some weight ( or gain some) in premium mode. It`s like your own makeup studio, that nobody`ll ever know that you`re fat, old and pimply in real life.

Convinced? Here give it a go.

Thursday, went to Marina Barrage for a picnic and kite flying with cell.

I realised I kind of forgot how to fly a kite but that`s okay cause with some help they all went into the sky anyway. ^_^ Played monkey, poker cards, stuffed my face and visited the fascinating gallery with Dylan and Joshy where we took postcards of ourselves. Speaking of which, I havent received it tsktsk! So pysched for Www next week :)

Real pretty place right?
Yeah I know the escape pictures hahahaha up real soon kay! :) I got to shower now.

Throw it away, forget yesterday.

2010-09-10T20:52:00.005+08:00

I`m blogging again because I`m bored here hahahaha! And facebook is a total disappointment, my baklava isn`t ready for another hour ): Watching some tourism show on channel 8 and practically stoning ^_^ giving up on my circles worksheets cause I totally don`t get the tangent rule o_o.

Okay I deleted my previous post cause the half-baked escape photographs were a bad idea - I`ll complete `em like tomorrow along with a new picnik pic ;luvluv. Am still thinking of ways to raise readership up to 1k views so if you`re reading this I thank you HAHA. At my pathetic 900+ viewership pigs`ll fly before they send me the adsense or nuffnang check.

Suggestions? More pictures? Reviews of entertainment places? Gaming guides? Life in general? Chimology philosophies or tumblr pictures? What`d you guys want to see on this space? :) Do feedback to me alright you can tag, text, msn, facebook suit yourself I`m not getting formspring cause it`ll be embarrassing if mine only has like, 10 people feedbacking? HAHA wait till I get more famous. ^_^

I`ll spam you all tumblr pictures for now. :)

Byebye. 30more minutes to baklava!

My blog stats.

2010-09-04T17:34:00.002+08:00

"I always distance myself when people become emotionally close to me. Maybe it`s because I know in the end they`ll end up leaving. They always do. "

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Okay I know I shouldn`t be here but I`m just bored and lazy heehee. :)

Two Of Us.

2010-09-03T17:07:00.003+08:00

Okay I won`t be posting anymore because EOYs are round the corner. Therefore this blog`ll be on hiatus till mid october. However I`ll still read tags so please keep them coming k? :)

Okay before I go, pixspam for you guys! Here`s the night at Clarke Quay: Pretty ain`t it?

I know the pictures are so small lately - simply because I haven`t uploaded them to facebook before linking `em here. Well, nobody really wants to see such stuff on facebook right?

I love clarke quay nights :) The pubs, the river, the city lights, and the foreigners! Has anyone tried the bungee jump! I`d like to go but imo I`m too chicken HAHAAA.

Wednesday was teachers day - public holiday yay :) Went with Joshy, Nick and Dylan on our usual outing - this time to watch Cats and Dogs @ehub.

The movie was kewl ( I actually like cartoon movies k ;) and although it`s the typical hero defeats evil plot of most cartoons *ahem chicken little toy story three transformers astroboy* it was still really cute! And the carnival setting of the climax was epik - the explosion turned out to be fireworks. LOL, I really love that ride!

We camwhored in the cab. I like the pict because my limbs look thin HAHAHA.

Went to Josh`s house and watched Grown Ups. Movie Marathon! :) Then Dylan and I goped Josh`s pirated dvds to watch at home LOL. I`m going to start on one before dinner HAHA. ( if i manage to operate the tv -.- ) We hauled a basketball around the room playing catch and helped Josh with his art. :D

Heading off to the gym soon :) at Gerald`s! And yes I do have an eye infection but it`s pretty minor but a scratch on the cornea is no joke HAHA. That means no contacts for a week, FML. And I`ve taken MC today ( which was supposedly unnecessary) and got referred to the A&E at the hospital for absolutely nothing and was ripped off of eighty five bucks.

Got some nice eye drops and eye cream ( ew eye cream?) and I think I`ll be fine soon :) Thanks everyone for the concern!

# 6 A photo that makes you laugh.

2010-08-31T20:18:00.002+08:00

I was looking through my huge desktop images archives and I found this.

HAHAHA Sorry Jas this is so funny! One weird cellgroup forfeit. O_O

I`m so happy cause I worked out today and sweated like a mad pig cycling and running. Waiting for dinner now ^-^ Also pissed with myself cause I`m such a slacker EOYS are in like, a month`s time! Chemistry and Engleesh test on friday haha okay no more screwing up :)

Facebook is throwing tantrums! So is baking life tsk tsk the baklava I put in yesterday didn`t cook, APPARENTLY IT FORGOT TO AUTOSAVE. HAHAHAHA.

Today was fun cause it was nice seeing all my cvps classmates once again. Ym, Mabel, Jaime and everyone else! I missed those good old days man! We`d all sneak to compass point in between cca and supplementary lessons for KFC. And not to mention the ice cream man that stops at the backgate before the school bus drives off! And all those twenty-minute recesses where we`d play disease and ice and water heeheehee.

And it was nice to see someone who once used to be so special to me. I emphasize on the word once used to be. Of course that was all in the past! It`s been three years.

Anyway happy teachers' day!

# 5: A photo of yourself.

2010-08-30T21:36:00.002+08:00

HI THIS IS JESS' UGLY FACE HAHA.

I can feel a headache coming. Must be the contacts, crap. I feel stupid, because I screwed up the A-math test. Math has never been my forte but at least I`d made an effort to study and still did badly. I simply couldn`t remember the frigging formulae. Life is unfair heeheeeheeeeheeeeee.

I FEEL FAT. I`ve neglected the gym for weeks. I know all of you are just going to go " Shut up you`re nowhere near fat" but yes my leg muscles are FLABBING and DIGUSTING HAHAHA. And my bowling enthusiasm is getting nowhere. My rolls of jelly go jiggle jiggle and it`s not that I am anorexic I just can`t stand being out of shape.

And I`m laughing about it. :)

#4 A photo of the last place you went on holiday.

2010-08-28T14:05:00.003+08:00

No this is not a tumblr picture. This is the expert photography of my sister. :)

Man, I miss holidays. It`ll be like months before I can go on one again ): I miss all the long road trips where I could finish a whole mp3 playlist and sleep and stop at toilets and petrol stations for drinks and chewing gum. I miss Genting Highlands and Malacca! :)

Presenting my newfound passion:

I`ve always liked bowling, so it isn`t newfound really! But I have never really been good at it. (Neither am I, still). I have an embarrassing way of walking anyhowly up to the foul line and swinging the ball before hauling it into lane with a loud clang that could near shatter the floor. And it`s nearly a gutter everytime. :D

I want to learn for real now. :)

#3: A photo that makes you happy.

2010-08-26T20:05:00.002+08:00

I couldn`t decide which of my thousands of photos made me happiest so it`d be much better to combine them all into one big picture. I was bored! Anyway, all of you peeps make me so happy! Even if you`re not in my picture (I can`t possibly fit everyone in, or I don`t have your picture) just know how much you guys make my day! Schoolmates, Auditionists, fellow siblings in Christ, Facebook friends, ex-guildmates and many others I met in the strangest of ways!

/:)

Today: After school, went to Bb with Mandy to get our cardboard sheets from Art Friend. Had fun bonding with her talking about Mary, Joey, school and life in general. We went to Jack`s Place for a nice lunch, ordered soup, garlic bread, ice cream, coke and spaghetti. What happened to my resolve to diet, LOL.

Went shopshop at Iluma and Bugis Junction awhile, my hands are itching for Bugis Street cheap deals. I could use a new bag ( fine, I just got one awhile ago.) I want my tragus piercing so, so bad! Am waiting for Rachael to get permission to pierce her ears so we can go together! :D

I`ll upload pictures soon okay! :) Psyched, bowling @ Safra tomorrow!

#2: A photo of yourself a year ago

2010-08-25T22:56:00.002+08:00

Promise you won`t laugh? Okay, HAHAHAHAHA.

There`s not much I can post tonight because it`s already so late. A real update soon, I promise. I Am so happy cause I`ve finished my CL bible studies! All these wednesdays I dragged my feet to class after an exhausting day of art, boy it`s all worth it.

And I`m going to get my tragus piercing real soon, heehee. Going to follow Derrick`s recommendation, read that up on Sgforum too and it`s quite reliable. Hopefully no splitted/ cracked cartilage or anything LOL.

God is so good to me, boy I don`t even deserve it. All these times I`ve been such a letdown to Him, never showing up for bs and prayer meetings, rearing my ugly side whenever things go wrong. But He forgave and forgot so quickly as I repented and in turn blessed me greatly! His love never fails.

I just wanted to share this one passage tonight,

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.

1 Corinthians 13

You lost the best. Someday, you`ll realise that.

2010-08-22T15:21:00.004+08:00

My blog is gradually dying! Therefore I`ve decided to take a new approach to blogging. I don`t want everything here to be a repeat of what you can find on facebook, but I still want to share where I`ve been and how`s it anyway! Must keep this little space alive.

I`ve decided to do the 30 days of photographical memories. Every post will contain a picture in order of the following:

Day 1. your facebook profile photo
Day 2. a photo of yourself a year ago
Day 3. a photo that makes you happy
Day 4. a photo of the last place you went on holiday
Day 5. a photo of you
Day 6. a photo that makes you laugh
Day 7. a photo of someone you love
Day 8. a photo of your favourite band/musician
Day 9. a photo of your family
Day 10. a photo of you as a baby
Day 11. a photo of your favourite film(s)
Day 12. a photo of you
Day 13. a photo of your best friend(s)
Day 14. a photo of one of your favourite family members
Day 15. a photo of you and someone you love
Day 16. a photo of you at the last party you went to
Day 17. a drunk photo of you
Day 18. a photo of one of your classes
Day 19. a photo of you on a school trip
Day 20. a photo of something you enjoy doing
Day 21. a photo of you standing up
Day 22. a photo of your town
Day 23. a photo of your friend
Day 24. a photo of you that your hair looks nice in
Day 25. a photo of a night you loved
Day 26. a photo of your favorite weekend
Day 27. a photo of last summer
Day 28. a photo of what you ate today
Day 29. a photo of someone you find attractive
Day 30. a photo of you when you were happy

# Your facebook profile photo.

HAHA looks a bit gay I know. This was taken at YOV! We couldn`t buy the damn toy which was fifty nine bucks so we could only take home pictures of it, LOL. Still, it was a great trip :) I wanted to go again, but TeeHou (who`s a volunteer) tells me they refuse entry to the public! And security is real tight there, boohoo.

Friday: Had a very unproductive time of gyming with Gerald. I wish you all share my worries of dying early due to unhealthy eating, omg. ~.~ I have fast food like, five times a week! And I`m eating instant noodles very often. Got to break the habit! And I exercise like, 100times not enough. I only cycled like ten minutes, lifted some weights, pulled some bar thingys. Then we went to jump into the swimming pool. Swam around for like, 15minutes, the security guard came to tell us it was raining, and we had to get out. Aw so disappointed, I didn`t even get to play on the slide yet! Haha. Showered and then we went to have subway for dinner. I love subway! Especially honey mustard sauce and their generous helping of onions. Gerald hates onions btw, he claims they make your breath stink ( I guess they do) but I can`t be bothered, LOL.

Go team Raffles! Heehee. Judging from how things are going I am pretty sure I won`t make it into RJC. Well, I can`t seem to do well in everything at the same time. In CA1, I failed my amath, in CA2 I got A1 for it. I did exceptionally well for English in CA1 but now I`m practically failing it. I aced combined humanities last term, now I just failed social studies, I got C5 for my emath last term, now I have an A1 on the dot. It basically boils down to the fact that I can`t do everything well all at the same time.

EOYS are coming! Have you guys gotten your lazy asses cracking yet? Well, I haven`t.

Keep reading, awesome. Tsktsk. ;)

Your Baking Life Serving Guide

2010-08-18T22:13:00.002+08:00

This is the total amount of experience you`ll get from cleaning, dishing and serving these dishes. Be nice and appreciate this guide okay. :P

Chocolate chip cookies 4 exp
Lemon poppy seed muffins 15 exp
Vanilla bundt cake 22 exp
Banana nut bread 31 exp
Tres leches cake 34 exp
Bear claw 164 exp
Pistachio biscotti 68 exp
Baked donughts 144 exp
Lattice top apple pie 62 exp
Passion fruit mousse cake 123 exp
Pecan pie 167 exp
Cream puffs 102 exp
Baklava 404 exp
Layered chocolate cake 141 exp
Parisian macaroons 251 exp
Lemon Merengue Pie 117 exp
Bibingka coconut cake 222 exp
Strawberry rhubarb pie 164 exp
Almond croissants 209 exp
Raspberry cheesecake 277 exp

2010-08-18T20:14:00.003+08:00

Sometimes. I just feel like I`m burning out.

Why did I say those things, before I was sure.

2010-08-15T19:39:00.002+08:00

I`m here to update again. My blog`s been quite dead due to my hectic schedule and Imma go rush art later so have to keep this short and sweet! :) Shall post about yesterday`s "so called" connectgroup outing with Joshy, Nicholas, and Dylan lovelove!

We went to ehub and bowling. The day started off badly with me oversleeping and my dad left without giving me bucks so I had to make a detour to Expo. It`s so awesome to have a dad working walking distance from CHC!

Next week is Health Month activities and I`m going for bowling!I hope there`s an instructor so I`m actually going to learn something. Tsk. Anyway, recalling the last two health months they were really awesome. Tchoukball at CCAB although I didn`t know anyone it was kewl hahaha! And inline skating was the most epik ever, with Mary, Xinmin and Sive HAHA. Yeah I fell like every ten metres along the track.

Real nice time of gaying at Jus Acia after that. I love Spicy Chicken Set! Just like Dylan loves Dory Fish with Melted Cheeeeese because it rhymes HAHA. And Josh ate six cups of ice cream and we were throwing our food everywhere. Meh shook the chocolate powder shaker on Dylan`s head, damn epik HAHA.

Till my next post, keep reading. :)

For the iPhone folks.

2010-08-12T21:11:00.002+08:00

I love this ttm. Get this if you love food like me.

Check BBQ Pro out at your app store today! :)

You`ll never find the right person if you won`t let go of the wrong one.

2010-08-01T19:20:00.005+08:00

Today: Woke up at 5.45p.m and braved the winds and rains to the Indoor Stadium for ministry and CHC`s 21st anniversary. Boy it was worth it. Had fun mobile selling with Nicholas although everyone said no to us 90% of the time. We managed to sell about 10 CDs in the short 30minutes? Heh. Then went to service with my lovelove Dylan. Pastor Kong preached a short message on Faith, Hope and Love. Man, so good to see Pastor again. We hear so little of his preaching nowadays with all the guest speakers.

Ministry was fun with Clifton, Sarah, Jeffrey and Nicholas and alot of other friends. Although we didn`t really do much retail, just sneaked the office in the basement to eat lunch and sleep. An eventful day though, went to J-cube after that. Audi`s being a prick for like, 4 days already when is it ever going to patch!? Not that I`m a die-hard Auditionist who breathes the game but it does get annoying when you want to play ):

I love the song Hosanna (Be Lifted Up) by True Worshippers :) We sang it during Asia Conference. Don`t look for the Hillsong version cause TW is muchmuch better!

Forever be my world, you are the only one.

2010-07-31T10:55:00.002+08:00

Facebook is being a douche so I`m back to good old blogger! I`ve not posted for so long that I don`t really know how to start. Been spending days with my lovelove! Yes, I`m attached. ;) You guys are probably gonna give me a hard time for breaking my resolution so fast but I guess some things happen. Besides, aren`t you guys happy for me? :D I`m moving on, and never looking back.

I`ll start with yesterday`s FOP2010. Epik fun and planetshakers brought the house down. I`ve got pictures but haven`t uploaded them yet. I served like, 20minutes at ministry D: Cause my shift was over by the time the service ended and I came like, 30minutes before the service started. So guilty! I`ll make up for it on Sunday ;)

Really inspiring testimony too. If a drug addict can eventually become a pastor and reconcile with his dad, there`s hope for my sister. :D

Thursday cca - Passed tentage and slacked my day away facebooking and twitting. I`ve figured out how to bypass the school`s facebook ban, thanks to good old Sive. :)

Leaving for flag day soon. :D Hope today will actually be fun. I`ll be around dhoby ghaut so if you see me give me coins okay! Pictures`ll be up when I find time. :)

Who needs friends like you?

2010-07-29T21:39:00.004+08:00

I`m a happy girl. ^-^

I really want to post but I have no time to put my mind into words. So I`ll just have to save blogging to when I really have the time. ): Hopefully tomorrow or this weekend! Stay tuned.

Rawr.

2010-07-24T08:50:00.006+08:00

Pixspam from tumblr! i`m not too lazy to exercise my fingers and write ( like real, HAHA) but a picture speaks a thousand words right? :) Enjoy! Ish art okay!

Okay I`m done being random here. Going to baking life.

Throw it away, forget yesterday. Watch it burn, let it die.

2010-07-23T16:09:00.003+08:00

Hi. Sorry for the much neglect of my blog. ): Been real busy, that`s why. I`m happy that I did well for my amath and chemistry without studying, :D but not exactly proud of my procrastination. ): I won`t be so lucky everytime, HAHA.

Racial harmony day celebrations: A nice song for humanity - Where is the love , Black Eyed Peas!
:D

Check out this gayness. HAHA, do you just hate it? LOL. Anyway, that`s me omgzxc.

Hooray for cellgroup fellowship later. :) I miss Meridian`s aweshum foodcourt. Hope we end up langaming or something, ;luv. Meanwhile, shower and yes, actually do my work since Facebook`s being a prick.

Is this really the end?

2010-07-20T19:44:00.003+08:00

I`ve found the reason to move on, and there`s no turning back this time round. Taking one two babysteps, I`m starting over again.

Listening Comprehension was .. average. I`d say easy, but I don`t want to end up sounding like a complacent bitch and realise I`ve actually gotten everything wrong. But I just didn`t feel the hard-ness of it ( shit, sounds wrong). Hope I`ll do well all the same. :)

Art tomorrow and I`ve not done my work as usual heehee. I think Mr. Razak`s exasperated with me and left me to my self-destruction. Haven`t mugged a-math either, shiat. I just need more practice with the discriminants and modulus graphs. Wednesday ends with my third lesson at Riverwalk, the one I`m so looking forward to.

Yes, the one about love, the greatest aim in life. :)

Thursday`s going to be even crappier with combined humanities test and chemistry test and I still got to study my tentage for cca! ): So much work, rahrah. And finally Friday, to the gym and fellowship with my awesome E402 family. :)

Next weekend is even busier with CHC`s anniversary, flag day, SJI`s carnival ( Kay I promised Bryan I`d be there already, so anyone wants tickets to come along? :D)

I`ve been up to alot lately. The celebration of July birthdays with N455 and W300 :) with a bbq at Boon Lay, hell far but it was awesome meeting all these new people! And yesterday`s connectgroup outing, I just love connect group outings now, cause it`s our second outing and it`s so fun everytime :) Tampines gym with Dylan and Josh, yay I feel accomplished cause I`ve not gym-ed for days, boohoo. Nor have I been doing my sit-ups and eating healthy. ): Ate BK ( contradictory to the gyming) and tonned at the library!

Pictures just look up my facebook I have to mug soon bye. :)

Create in me a new heart, one that`s after You.

2010-07-17T14:15:00.002+08:00

I`m finally posting again! Sorry for the lack of updates cause I`ve simply been out from morning till night. Here`s what I`ve been up to:

Wednesday night, headed to Siloso after art lessons with JingYan, Brendan, Phoebe, Jasmine and Bren`s friends! We booked a whole lane of flowriding at wavehouse! It was alot of fun surfing although I`m as noob as anything, LOL. Jingyan and I, the first timers wiped out in a matter of three seconds on the surfboard. We did tyco a few times and stayed longer though :) And the rest of them were really good and Brendan could even jump and do tricks.

The bodyboard was really fun, but I drank alot of water. And my muscles ached terribly HAHA! Skinned my knees, my arm hurt for two days, and my ass was the worst. LOL.

We reached before it was even dark. ;) Many people have been asking me how I even managed to get into Wavehouse. I guess there`s this misconception that Wavehouse is a nightclub/ beach bar but well, it`s just a place of recreation. There were some underage procedures but nothing much, really. ;)

I couldn`t consider flow-riding one of my interests, just entertainment I`d go for once in a month? Firstly, I`m terrible at it, HAHA. And each session is thirty bucks, how can I afford to go everyday and practice? And investing in a board would like $500, too costly an interest for me. More like a once-in-awhile opportunity of fun!

The current`s really big, like 50km/h, so you get swept up when you fall whether you like it or not. If you fall in a really unglam way ( face down flat, totally HAHA) you`re just swept up like that and all the tourists stand at the side and take pictures of you. LOL. If you try to get up against the current, you just drink more water.

We were there wiping out like, for two hours. LOL. I didn`t make it beyond ten seconds on the board, HAHA. The instructor holds this rope you can pull when you`re on the wave, then he slowly lets go. The moment he did I wobbled and fell, gg. LOL. They bought this huge mug of redbull with Vodka in it. Meh hates Redbull x100 and hates Vodka x1000 so only drank like a sip.

Then we went to the Wavehouse bar for dinner. They make really great burgers, but one meal`s like $18, wootwoot. See what I mean about not going often? These tourist traps heehee, but the food`s real good.

Basically just pictures of all of us acting stupid ;) JingYan has the largest man-boobs I`ve ever seen, HAHA. Brendan tells us his m-oobs are bigger than all of us girls put together. Self esteem bruised, LOL. I`m joking.

Okay I got more pictures coming up I think :) Stay tuned alright!

You know what`s the shitty thing? I`ve lost my wallet, darnzxc. Along with a bunch of memorable stuff from movies, zouk and wavehouse and more. And 25 bucks, ;cry. Nevermind, do charity. :) And I`m laughing about it, LOL. Ain`t very bothered cause I know God`s going to provide for me.

WHY DOESN`T ANYONE BELIEVE I WOULD WIN A TROPHY THAT SAYS " SOUTH DIVISION TEN PIN BOWLING SECOND PLACE" !? My dad claimed I stole it/ had it custom made. LOL. Cause my bowling skills are like, disastrous. Oh well, no one will ever have to know the awesome truth. ;)

Friday: Went to Waffletown with Yh to have lunch. Awkward cause we saw alot of people we knew. And they kept staring in that "knowingly" way, lol. Don`t understand why people are so conservative in their mindset that every guy I go out with has to be my boyfriend. That way, I must have at least twenty boyfriends. HAHA. Annoying shit.

We went shopping at Orchard, Cotton On. Mostly I shopped and talked to him. And we walked around in circles cause we were too busy talking to know where we were going, haha. Yh treated me to ice cream at haagen dazs, thanks much dude :) And he was really nice to offer me bucks when I didn`t have my wallet, for dinner and everything.

Met Dylan at Tampines, was supposed to pick him up and drop off my stuff at his place but I kind of took too long at Orchard so I was late. Sorry Dylan! Trained to Jas Tai`s house together, a funny and eventful evening at cell :) With instant noodles cooked with egg and meatballs, yum. (Y).

Okay. Going to study and gym! I`ve made my ezlink card, HAHA.